When I am happy,
I sometimes feel like crying
When will I stop missing you?
I took my life back,
a part of what I've had before,
a part of last year and
a little bit „new me".
And I am okay with this,
it's not the best,
it might never be the very best again,
but fort the instance,
it is alright.
And sometimes there are these days when I am very happy and laugh a lot. These are the days when I think about you even more than on usual days.
And I find it kind of odd,
because you usually just feel the pain when you're not feeling good anyway,
but for me,
it somehow works differently.
Maybe it is to show me, how much you really mean to me.
I miss you,
I feel the feeling of missing
when I am sad,
when I am happy,
when I am alone,
when I am surrounded by others,
just all the time.
And I have gotten used to it, it doesn't make me want to curl up and cry, I don't feel the physical pain, that once came with it, anymore.
But there still is ‚something' and I can't really explain it, but it's worse than anything aching, because there is no remedy to this.
And that's how it comes,
that sometimes,
when something is
beautiful,
I just burst into tears and can't stop sobbing,
because I want to share
this beauty, the love, the joy, the happiness
that make this moment what it is,
with you.
But I can't.
And deep inside me, I know the answer to the question.
Never
will I stop missing you,
until I am with you again.
And who knows if that will ever happen?
I don't.
I only know that it is almost impossible.
But we will try.
That's the one thing I know for sure.
Because which other option do we have?
