The Writings Of A Vintage Girl

Lonliness

I feel as if though,

My soul is being taken from me,

As if my true self died off,

I wear a mask in order to hide,

I can't come out from behind it,

In my mind,

All the star that were in my sky,

Are falling,

Piece by piece,

They are falling,

The fire that once was in my heart,

The adventure,

The happiness,

The joy,

Is burning out,

Like a fan blows out a candle,

That was lite,

My tears want to flow,

Like a river wanting to stream,

Yet I have to hold that river,

From coming,

The adventure and spit fire I once had,

Burnt away,

I only know two people that can bring it back,

But they aren't here,

They are far from my reach,

The darkness that I know,

All to well is falling upon,

My dreaded body,

Its cold as ice,

I dont want it to fully close on me,

All I want is to be happy,

To be saved,

To feel wanted,

To be cared about,

Like I'm truely someone,

Not feeling like a doll on a shelf,

Never getting played with,

Or held,

All I feel is pain,

Like a bullet to heart,

That feels like glass,

It shatters,

Piece by piece falls,

And no one notices,

Besides the two,

Since they know the feeling,

I wish I could be with them,

I really do,

It would take this pain away,

Since I would be cared for,

And I would be able to smile,

Along with laugh,

Have a good time,

And not have to worry all the time,

Not be depressed,

Being happy is all I want,

But it seems I cant get it,

Right now......