Love or Hate?

Chapter 2

Dan's POV 

I am not going to lie I am nervous to be so close to Phil again when my mum told me that we were going to be moving here I was hoping that I wouldn't really have to see him. I was hoping we would be in different classes and ideally different schools but the area is pretty small so there is only one high school that that makes my second wish pretty impossible. But I have a plan I am going to try and get him to trust me again I do feel bad about what happened all those years ago but I did what I did to protect myself. 

Seeing him again today made it all come back all of the memories that I had managed to block out from my mind that I had buried because it hurt to much to think about what I did to us. It was my fault and i know that but I didn't know what else to do. 

I am so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't even realise that last lesson was over until the teacher said "Mr Howell is there a reason you are still here?" I quickly looked up at him and shook my head and gathered up all of my things and left the classroom while muttering out an apology. This school is pretty small so I don't even know how I am lost right now I managed to take a wrong turn somewhere and now I am out the back of school near some sort of outhouse. I am about to turn round but I hear someone crying its only faint but I'm sure someone is there so I decide to go and have a look and see if I can be any help to them. I am walking forward to where the sound is coming from I make sure to be quiet so they don't know I am coming and try to leave but I don't want to scare them. 

I don't know what I am going to be faced with when I go round the corner so I take a deep breath and look round the corner. I look round and I see a familiar site all to familiar site to be honest something that I wanted to avoid seeing again. I saw Phil hunched up against the wall sobbing his heart out. My first instinct is to go down and hug him and make him smile again and before my brain has any time to tell me that is a bad idea I am already lunging for him and bringing him into a big warm hug. I can tell he must be really sad because he doesn't even look to see who is hugging him he just dives straight into my arms.   

I just hold him for a moment before I say "oh Phil don't cry I don't like seeing you cry" and when I say that he pulls away and starts to laugh a little bit and says "Daniel you haven't changed I thought you still loved me but I had to make sure for myself so I decided to do a little test and I knew I was right all along" how could he. He should know that I never loved him it was all a game to him as it was to me but for some reason this hurts more than our last game. He gets up to leave but before he can properly leave I stand up and grab his arm and shove him up against the wall and say "you think that I haven't changed well I will have you know I have changed more than you ever will you thought I ever loved you wow how deluded are you how could I ever love someone pathetic as you? Exactly I couldn't it isn't possible at all." 

I swear I see his face drop slightly as I say this but I don't think that any of this would actually bother him. Or maybe I was wrong because when I finish shouting at him his face crumples and real tears start to run down his face. But I decide to ignore my instincts this time and I say one final thing to him before I leave for good "you think I care that you are crying you think I am going to take care of you well think again have fun faggot" I drop him and walk away. I don't even know what came over me I'm never usually like that but I guess Phil has never brought out the best in me so this is all down to him again it always is his fault.  

I reach my car and I unlock it and get inside I sit there and look out of the window for a moment before I put my key in the ignition and set of home if I can even call it that. I am looking forward to getting back because I can just get food and then disappear into my room until the next morning its not like my family would notice they don't care about me they don't want what's best for me they just want me to disappear and as soon as I can I will. 

I get home pretty quickly considering because my house is only about a 10 minuet drive from school I don't have to drive but I'm just lazy so I do anyway. When I get inside I walk into the kitchen and I am just about to grab a packet of doritos but then my dad walks into the kitchen and says "put those back Daniel you are fat enough as it is also you mother wants you to come to dinner she has an announcement for us all" I sigh and grab the packet anyway and head back into my room. 

I go straight onto tumblr when i get into my room and i assume my browsing position on my bed and get ready for a night of internetting. A couple of hours into my internet session my mum bursts into my room and says " come down to dinner now I have something important to tell everyone and you need to be there" I can tell she isn't going to leave unless I go before her so i shut of my laptop and go downstairs and sit at the dinner table and wait for this oh so grand announcement. my mum stands at the end of the table and looks down at me, my dad and my brother and takes a deep breath in before delivering some of the worst news I have ever heard in my whole life " listen up everyone as you all know I have a new job and I said this house wouldn't be our permanent home so I have decided to tell you that we will be sharing a home with the Lester's" she looked so happy but I couldn't even think of anything to say so I just stood up and stormed out back up to my room. 

I can't believe I have to share a house with that...

Authors note

   Hola my little dinosaur chicken nuggets I am sorry at the quality of the chapters so far they will get better I promise I am still setting the scene stick with me! Thanks for reading see you next time!! :) 

-Z xx