Matt's POV (finally😂)
I can't wait to see carter yea sure I know that I was the one that left not him but I had to
He was hanging with her more then me and him
But that day was good and bad for because I was gonna be free but I wouldn't be able to see him
Y'all are probably wondering how I'm still alive well
Flashback.....
I got up and wrote a letter to carter
(what he worte)
Carter,
I'm sorry but u have hanged with her more then me so I think y'all should date cuz everyone loves y'all more then us but I just want you to that I really love u and I can see that ur love for me has faded away and I get why it faded away I'm not perfect in fact I'm the total opposite now I was never good looking to begin with and I don't get why u ever did love me But u don't have to worry now bye
Matthew E.
(End of letter)
After I wrote that I went to the only place that I knew so well
STUDEWOOD PARK
The only place that I love so much
I walked over to the swings with the rope and sat down and looked up at the sky
'God why did u have to make me in this cruel world'
That's all I said before I got up and tied the rope and no I am not really gonna kill myself I can really hold my breath for a long time and that's when I did it
45 minutes later
I woke up in a white room when a nurse came in 'oh god ur alive'
'Please can I talk to the doctor?'
'Yes u can'
Then a doctor came in
'Ah ur awake now why did u call me'
'I was wondering if u can tell my family that I've died?'
'Are u positive?'
'Yes I am'
'Ok'
Then he started to give me medicine
'This is to knock u out'
I just nodded when I was getting loopy
But I saw him unplug the machine
Then everything went black
End of flashback.....
That's how everyone believed me but I just really miss it all
The fans.
Carter.
The guys.
My family.
And
Oh my god how can I forget
BURNIE I WONDER HOW HIS DOING I MISS HIM
Hey my pandas its me again so yea I explained a lot of that but yea we yall later my pandas 🐼🐼🐼
