Let Me Love You

1

Whenever I am alone , I cry...

Each scar on my fragile body represents a permanent reminder of my own failings.  I'm just too weak to fight back , I wish I could push back down my emotions but my will is too weak. I try to forget but when I think about my situation I just begin to cry again. I feel like my soul has just ran loose into the wilderness and I feel sharp pains in my shattered heart.

As I hear his footsteps my body breaks down , I already know whats going to happen next...

"KIARA!", Tre shouted.                                                                                                     

I stayed silent,  an eerie silence hung in the air and then he shouted my name again. Everytime I hear his voice my mouth seems to stay closed.

"KIARA ARE YOU DEAF?! , ANSWER ME OR YOU KNOW WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN", Tre shouted again.  

"Yes Tre?",I replied as I started to wipe my tears.

I could hear more footsteps....

SLAM!
The door was wide open and in front of me stood Tre. Tre was generally good looking. He has a luscious skin tone ,a sharp jawline and full thick lips. His hazel eyes are the kind that I can look into and feel like I'm getting lost. Eyes that I can tell are smiling from the heart.
His colgate smile...
His tight curls...
Well that's how it use to be. I remember when we was more than a happy couple. We both understood each other and loved each other's flaws.  He used to give me warm kisses every night and he always made sure I was okay. Tre was such an affectionate person but one day I don't know what had gotten into his mind. He started to abuse me for no reason and every time I try to get out of this situation, he'd force me to stay.

Tre stared at me. I looked at him and I started to cry again, it's the only way I can express my feelings. Tre looked at me in anger. Rage boiled through his body and he lifted his hand out towards me. He whipped his hand across my face , I felt the vibrations echoing across the room. My head bounced off the floor and I could start to see a red bruise forming on my cheek.

"Tre w..." He cut me off by closing my lips. He punched me in my eye and blood started to drip down my feeble face.

"THATS WHAT YOU DESERVE, NEXT TIME YOU KNOW TO ANSWER ME!", Tre shouted.

Tre exited the room. I went to the bathroom to put a cold ice pack on my eye to soothe the pain. I tried to forget to about what had just happened even though I knew there was no logic to it. I'm not as hurt as I thought I would be but I know something is going on in Tre's life which triggers his actions towards me. I really don't understand why I am still with him. I feel like if I leave every boy would treat me the same. Maybe I'm just not good enough? Well that's what I think anyways.

3 hours later....

I laid in my bed thinking about how me and Tre should go our seperate ways. But lord knows how he would react to that. Tre opened the door and laid in the bed with me.

"Kiara you're so beautiful, I'm so lucky to have a girl like you.", Tre whispered in my ear.

"WHAT!" ,I said shockingly.

Tre looked at me.

" You beat me up , you abuse me for no particular reason and your saying you LOVE ME?, what type of foolishness is this?, sometimes you act calm and all of a sudden you're angry" ,I shouted.

" I told you I love you baby girl , I don't know what gets into me sometimes, I gotta admit I take it out on you a lil bit too much it's just I have alot on my mind",Tre replied.

I rolled my eyes and switched of my lamp. While Tre was sleeping , I kept on thinking about how I need to leave Tre and sort my life out especially without boys. I don't deserve to be treated like this.It's like boys don't know how to treat a girl right. Or it's just that they don't know what a girl wants to be honest.

I closed my eyes trying to forget about anything that had ever happened.