Chapter TwentyTwo
**Abigail's POV**
There was a time , back when I was just entering my teen years , where my mother and I had this unbreakable bond. One that my father longed for and my mothers female friends envied. I specially remember the first time I experienced heart break , yes back when I gave my all to a guy who later was needed in a better place, she took a hold of my hand and cradled me like a baby. She whispered so lowly that I could barely hear , 'And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears and love will not break your heart... But dismiss your fears' and it was something I carried out through out my life. I never really understood this beautiful quote until now. I looked up into those mesmerizing hazel blue orbs and saw it all , she felt the pain I felt , she knew how hard it was for me and that was something that made me feel complete at the time. To know that you aren't alone, in a time where you wish hell was the least of your problems. I remember asking her if she ever found her love that dismissed anything she feared. Her answer I presumed to be something along the lines of 'well look at your father' but she simply said 'you my dear' she has never loved my father but I don't blame her , seeing as she did have me at the age of 17. Where she envisioned herself worrying about being prom queen and picking out her college and instead she received an alternative high school and my father. Harry has been my living prove that is quote is one that is not fictional. He was my fear and my love all in one. So now where do we go from here ?
"Whats got you all distracted?" Harry asks as I turn my gaze from the window and to those mesmerizing emerald eyes.
"Nothing really.. What are we going to do?" I ask
"C'mon tell me" he pushes as I let out a breath of air that I had been storing since what felt like the night before.
"I miss my mother.. I don't know what to do without her. Harry we had this bond. It was so strong that it got to a point where if I had an overwhelming emotion she would feel it as well.. She helped me deal with my first heart break and that meant so much to me. What do I do now ? We've hit a bump and I have nobody to turn too. Alizah is walking on air with Zayn like their newly weds. Niall has a biased opinion towards us , but I have to be blamed for that. And you , your the one thats got me pondering over our relationship" I breath out , Their is so much untold business between us two. But I have to figure out what I want first. I love him but when he left me standing in the middle of the airport it was something that made a huge dent in our relationship. It was almost like a hidden test that was thrown our way by the universe , and we both failed. It was horrible not having him by my side everyday and I don't know if I am strong enough to do it for an entire year.
"Babe , calm down. You can talk to me. Ask me anything , tell me anything.. I really don't care I just want to see your beautiful smile again"
I couldn't help it a clear smile spread across my lips as his mimicked my own and I walked into his opened arms. I guess it wouldn't be that bad to talk to Harry.
"I just don't know what I want" I whisper , I hate that I keep braking the comfortable silence and keep bringing up a topic that I am sure he isn't comfortable with speaking openly about.
"Alright , I'm just doing this for you.. Just to show you how much you mean to me" he starts , I nod egging him to continue
"How did it feel when you kissed Niall?" He whispered most likely hoping I wouldn't hear him.
"It was.. It was just a regular kiss , it was soft and gentle but their was no real spark" I confess as I studied his face, it was unreadable. I had no idea what he was thinking and it was driving me crazy.
"What?" I manage to say braking another silence , if there was a crime for slicing through silence I would be a serial killer.
"Its just.. How does it feel when you kiss me?" He asks
"Kiss me" I order , he gives me a muffled and confused look but his face soon softens and does as instructed.
"Like this" I say bringing his hand up to my heart as it literately beats out of its socket. It was actually quit astonishing how easily he got a reaction from my body.
"You make my stomach burst into unbearable and untamable butterflies , you make my thoughts jumble and they soon turn to nothing because all that consumes my thoughts after that is you. You make the world around us stop and you transport me to this utopia where its just you and me.. Your this beautiful mistake that I would never trade for the world because you are my world. So what else would I have to trade you for if you are what I have and want.. Don't ever let me go because once you let go my world is ripped from me.. Don't let me go , cause I'm tired of feeling alone" I whisper into his chest, my heart leaped with every word that escaped my lips. It felt right to have him around and just talk to him , just lay with him. But then thats when it all hit me, like a ton of bricks, he has to leave. His lips connected with mine once again , it was innocent yet still managed to set a couple of sparks loose which I desperately needed. He didn't have to say anything , this moment spoke on its own, along with this perfect kiss.
"I wont as long as you don't let me go.. Then I'll always be holding on , I'll never set you free. The marks humans leave are too often scars and I don't want to just be another scar added onto your already wounded body.. I want to be a memory , I want to be a healed wound if this does not last forever.. Promise me you wont let me go , no matter what happens" he brings his pinky up to meet mine , the glint of happiness in his eyes and the what felt like permanent smile on his face , resembled a 7 year old asking for her best friend to keep a promise.
"I promise" I assure as our pinky's touched, I lay my head on his chest and let his heart beat be the music to my earlobes.
"What are we going to do ? About this distance issue?" I ask my head still against his toned chest.
"Distance shouldn't matter because were all under the same sky , stars and moon at sometime if not all the time.. Every time your looking up at the sky just remember somewhere , somehow I'm doing the same exact thing"
The biggest smile was plastered across my face , I hate goodbye's but maybe this wasn't goodbye. This was just farewell , just until we meet again.
**OMG second update in one night for me.. Its because I love you all so much <3 but please do me a favor and check out my other FanFics it would mean literately the world.. Also I wont update until I reached at least over 100 reads on both of the chapters I updated today. Not to sound pushy or anything and I hate to do this to you guys but its just I'm devoting my time to writing for you guys the least I could get is a couple of reads in return... Thank you for being amazing every single one of you , I feel like Marcel, haha ! ! <3
P.S - About the whole Don't Let Me Go scenario I just had too ! It was calling my name lol but I really hope you guys enjoy it :] drop your comments , lovely's :* **
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