I wanted to cry out,
But the tears stayed away,
I wanted to scream,
But I chocked on the words,
I waited for the sunlight,
Waited for that reassurance,
That came with sun,
But never felt it's warmth,
Against my skin,
I wished for a rainbow,
And a star filled sky,
I wished for your love,
But only felt cold emotions,
I just wished I understood,
Why you pushed me so far away,
When all I tried to do,
Was make you so proud,
I waited for your smile,
Waited for words of a praise,
That came from a loving mother,
But never got to hear them,
When you forced me away,
I just wish I understood,
Why I never brought you happiness,
When all I tried to do,
Was make you happy with me,
I wanted to cry out,
My heart screamed for me to let it all go,
The emotions called for it,
But all I could ever do was hold back,
I waited for the sunlight,
I wished for a rainbow,
I waited for your smile,
I wished for a star filled sky,
And I wished for your love,
I wish I could lock these emotions up,
In a small heart shaped box,
And throw away the key,
Maybe than I'd be able to be happy,
I wanted to cry out,
But the tears stayed away,
I wanted to scream,
But I chocked on the words...
