Goodbye

Izaya's POV:

I still remember his reaction when Manami was born. He was so happy when he held her. She was so tiny and fragile but dam was she hard to deliver. But he was always by my side. Is it possible for someone you hated with everything fall over heels over you? Yeah, I thought it was stupid. I hated him afterall, I would have been happier if he'd just drop dead. But...I did love him. After all those times when he use to chase me, try to kill me, call me names, and even having sex, I knew something was there. I guess our feelings were hidden behind hatered and anger? High School and then on. After Manami was born he promised me he'd always be there no matter what. We were dating for a short time till I found out I was pregnant. I admit we did still fight during and after the pregnancy. But after I gave birth everything changed.

"I'll control myself, I promise...for the sake of Manami" he told me after the delivery. And I trusted him.

It had been about over a year since Shizu-chan told me that. And after all the hard and stressful months we had with Manami, we got through it. Manami grew up to be such a beautiful one year old. She's turning two in a couple months. She already walks and talks now...well kinda, he does still babble but she has some words covered. Her first word was "Shizu-chan" it was so cute after Shizuo heard her say that. I guess she heard me say it alot around the apartment. Not to mention, she looks actually like Shizu-chan,her short brown hair and light caramel eyes. She's such a wonderful baby, I couldn't have asked for anything else. But...Shizu-chan and I,  well...were not really like we use to be. He use to always greet me when I came home, kiss and hug me for no reason and tell me randomly how much he loved me and how grateful he was to have me. Complient me and even have some of those "nights" when were alone. But after a few months Manami was born he didn't really pay attention to me. Those welcome homes were nothing more then "Hey did you bring milk". Those hugs and kisses were only for some occasions,like if I were to leave town for work. The complients and sex disappeared after I began to gain weight. Sure I did try to get his attention. Wearing lingerie to bed, or even try to snuggle. But...he'd always push me away, he'd always have an excuse "Not now" or "I'm tired" or even "I have work tomorrow". I stopped trying. The fights were more common now. We'd start arguing that lead to yelling and shouting that later frightened Manami that she'd start loudly wailing. And...I would ignore her, leave to lock myself in the bedroom leaving Shizuo to calm down baby. But after we did always forgive eachother. This entire thing was so hard having a family, a child, and to keep the realtionship strong. I'm tired....I'm done.

To be Continued...