Bella, what are those?

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I looked at Alice, trying to think of a way out of this.

"I cut myself earlier on, before I fell asleep. It's nothing."

"Bella, it's more than a cut. I can tell."

I sighed, and she leaned against the wall, looking at me. I sat up, thinking. I was wearing a long sleeved shirt, so she wouldn't see anything. I'd changed my shirt, afterwards.

"Bella, what are those?"

I looked at Alice, and she was looking at my arm. A bit of blood had gotten onto the shirt, that I hadn't noticed. And she was able to see part of one of the scars. Her eyesight is perfect, so she's have no problem seeing it.

"Bella, when did this start?"

She appeared next to me, looking concerned. It didn't seem to bother her, that I had been bleeding.

"I couldn't take it anymore. Everything Jessica said after she told everyone, it got to me. I haven't done this since I met you thought. But, what Jessica said tonight .................... It got to me." 

Alice shook her head, watching me. She looked at my arm, and up at me. She ran her fingers across one of the scars, and pushed my sleeve up before I could stop her.

"Bella....................... She's not worth doing this to yourself! What she said tonight ................. Well, I had something to say about that after you left. I care about you, and that's not going to change. I don't care about anything anyone says, I want to be with you. But, doing this to yourself, over someone like Jessica. I should've come over sooner."

Alice looked down at my arm, and I could see how upset she was.

"I haven't done it since I met you. Tonight ........................ It was to much."

"Bella, doing this is never the answer. I know the abuse you got was horrible. I saw it, but ................. I never saw this."

I looked down at my hands, and she ran her hand through her hair.

"Does your dad-"

"No. Only you know."

Alice nodded, looking at me.

"Bella, what she said tonight ...................... I care about you, Bella. I really do. Bret had to tell me to leave, a little while after you left. But, I still had a few things I wanted to say to Jessica. She was on her way out, and I ................. Well, she won't bother you about me anymore. I don't care about you being different. You're still my Bella. But, I never saw this."

"Alice, I haven't done this since I met you. I just couldn't listen to them say that. I just-"

"Bella, stop."

I looked up at her, and she looked upset.

"Bella, I know it upset you. But, this has to stop. I know she upsets you, but this isn't the answer. You can talk to me. I don't care what time it is. If it's 3am, and you need to talk, we'll talk."

I knew she was right, but it's not that easy. But, I needed to at least try.

"I'll try. I just-"

"I'm here for you, kitty. I'm not going anywhere. Ever."

She kissed my cheek, and looked at me. I knew she was right, but it would take time for me to get over this whole thing and learn to deal with everything. She moved a little closer, and I moved so she could lay next to me.

"Is this OK?"

Alice giggled, looking at me.

"Of course, it is. And don't worry about the cut, it's not that much. I just knew that it was more than a small cut."

I nodded, and grabbed her hand. She looked at my arms again, and sighed.

"I promise, I'll try stop. What did you do to Jessica?"

Alice laughed, and I looked at her, raising an eyebrow.

"Alice."

"Relax, I just told her ............... Well, she won't bother you about me .................... Fine! I may have told her that I know it was her that found out that you're different."

I buried my face in my hands, and Alice pried my hands away. I looked up at her, thinking.

"She won't bother you about me. She won't."

"But, she's going to start rumours about you and I."

"Oh, I also told her that I'd noticed her watching you. She likes you Bella, she's not going to admit it, but she does."

I shrugged, not really caring if she did. I kissed Alice shoulder.

"Well, the one I like is right here. I wouldn't go near her."

Alice kissed my temple, leaning against me. I smiled, feeling her short hair tickle my cheek.

"I know. But, I don't like the way she watches you."

"Is someone a little jealous?"

Alice moved away, looking at me.

"It's not that Bella. Vampires are pretty possessive, and I really care about you."

I nodded, I liked when she told me about this stuff. I liked how protective she was though.

"I know you're pretty protective, pixie. I like it. I've never felt like this about anyone else. I never thought someone would want to be with me."

"I care about you. I just want the cutting to stop."

"It will. I just need a bit of time. Plus, you're cute when you're angry."

Angry Pixie = Adorable.

And what do I get? The pout.

"You're just proving my point, pixie. This may be a stupid question, but how-"

"You have a tree right next to your window, kitty."

I nodded, and she laughed.

"Oh."

She must've noticed how tired I was getting.

"You're tired, kitty. I'm here for you, and I don't want you to feel the need to do this." She ran her fingers across one of the scars. "So, I don't care when it id, if you need to talk. We'll talk."

I'm not sure about this.................. Let me know what you think............