Bella, what are those?

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I woke up, and realised I was cuddled up next to Alice and ...................... Wait. I started to move away, realising the position I was in. I knew she'd know how I reacted to laying next to her.

Alice stopped me, wrapping her arms around me.

"Bella, stop. I don't care about that, now come on. Charlie will be up soon."

She didn't let me go, and I looked up at her.

"Aliiiiiiice!"

She laughed, looking at me. She pulled me a little closer, and I noticed Lexie on Alice's knee.

"She woke up at around 2, and decided to sleep there. And I don't want you to do that, you know I don't care about that. All I want is you to feel comfortable around me. Acting like that, makes me feel like you don't like being close to me."

You really did it now, Bella. Didn't you?

I sat up, and pulled her into a hug. She was right. I needed to stop worrying about that. She didn't care about me being different. I needed to stop worrying about that.

"I don't feel this comfortable around anyone but you. I just get nervous sometimes. I'll try to stop that, though. I'm sorry, pixie."

I felt her squeeze me, and kiss my neck. It was a little to tight though.

"Alice, can't breath."

She let go of me, and sat back.

"Oops."

I laughed, and shook my head. I didn't mind, she was just a little upset. I needed to make her see that I care about her, and felt completely comfortable around her.

"It's fine, pixie. I think we woke Lexie up though."

We looked down at a very disgruntled Lexie, as she jumped off Alice's lap. Alice left, promising to pick me up, and I got ready. I had to take Lexie to the vet after school, but it was my dads day off so we didn't need to worry about anyone being home.

Alice arrived a little while later, and after saying goodbye to my dad, I walked out and got in her car. I kissed her, and she seemed a little happier. I grabbed her hand, rubbing the back of with my thumb. I felt like an idiot about earlier, but I wasn't used to it. I know she's stayed before, but I ................... I just couldn't believe that like her, wanted to be with someone like me.

"I'm sorry about earlier."

Alice looked at me, and shook her head. If anyone else had been driving, I'd have been worried, but she was and I wasn't worried.

"Bella, I just want you to be comfortable around me. When you do stuff like that, it makes me feel like you're not comfortable. It makes me feel like ........... Like you don't trust me."

We had arrived at the school, and I turned to look at her properly.

"Alice, look at me."

She looked up at me, upset.

"Alice, you're the only one I can get this close to without freaking out completely. I know, I moved this morning, but I'm trying to relax more. I trust you, Alice. There's no one I trust more than you. You're the only one who knows about .................."

She knew what I meant, and I didn't say anything else.

Neither of us said anything, and I waited for her to say something. I hoped she wouldn't get tired of this, I don't know what I'd do about her.

"Bella, you know how I feel about you. And what you're considering is ridiculous, I'm not going anywhere. I just wish you would relax a little. Like that day in my room, you didn't care, did you? I was on top of you, tickling you. I know you're nervous about getting closer to me, but you need to understand that I love being close to you."