Fools (KageHina)

F o o l s - I

Inspired by the second installment of Troye Sivan's Blue Neighbourhood Trilogy - Fools. (Music video's in the media)

PS: kindly tell me if you see any grammatical errors. I would really appreciate it :) x

- Akaichi

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I am tired of this place, I hope people change. I need time to replace what I gave away. And my hopes, they are high, I must keep them small. Though I try to resist I still want it all.

Kageyama stared at the luggage in front of him.

He's at his old bedroom. It's been years since he went home, gotten busy with his university life - his varsity scholarship and part-time jobs taking up all of his time. His mom always called him, telling him to come home especially during summer or semestral breaks but he always have an excuse too.

He can't go home.

Just thinking about home brings back memories he doesn't want to remember anymore. So he can't go home.

Once upon a time, Kageyama fell in love. But it seems like not all love story ends with a happy ever after. Because after all the love that they had shared, Hinata - the bundle of sunshine Kageyama loved - gave up on him, gave up on them.

He was different from everyone, Hinata, that he is. When Kageyama first saw him it was on a volleyball tournament. They fought against each other and right at that moment he knew Hinata was bound to be something someday. He was amazing, even with his raw, untrained abilities - which made Kageyama beat him so easily that time.

They parted ways: because that's how tournaments are supposed to be. End with the stronger winning and the weaker losing, and then go home and move on with their lives. It was really far beyond Kageyama's imagination to meet Hinata again - let alone play in the same team with him - who apparently held a grudge against Kageyama for beating him.

They didn't click easily - caused quite a lot of ruckus with their banters actually. But as the day gone by, things between them gradually changed, and they surprisingly became good friends. Them being a good combination inside the court was a big factor to that. Kageyama knew right from the start Hinata was gonna be something - and he really was. Hinata turned out to be the only person who could hit his quick tosses - it was like Hinata was the only person who could connect to him inside and outside the court. Hinata trusted him, and he did everything for Hinata.

Until the friendship turned into something more.

He started to see Hinata in a different light - admired Hinata's bubbly personality, caught himself a few times staring at Hinata from afar, imagining his adorable smile, replaying his beautiful laugh - and then freaked out when one night, he dreamt the two of them kissing.

He realized then that he liked Hinata.

Like, like like him.

In a not-so-friendly way.

Things started to be awkward for him and Hinata, despite being a dumbass, caught on that something's wrong with Kageyama. And yes, he ambushed Kageyama that one fateful afternoon and yes, Kageyama confessed albeit unplanned - thank you, Hinata - and yes, the midget reciprocated grumpy pant's feelings.

Sweet isn't it?

But there's a catch.

They needed to hide their relationship because they can't let anyone know about them. It would be trouble if people knew, Hinata said. Kageyama agreed, because whatever makes Hinata comfortable, he'll go for it.

He'll do everything for Hinata.

I see swimming pools and living rooms and aeroplanes. I see a little house on the hill and children's names. I see quiet nights poured over ice and Tanqueray.

Kageyama was beyond overjoyed - he was on cloud nine. He never imagined he could feel this way ever, to be head over heels, hopelessly in love (with a dumbass guy to boot) but he still did. Hinata was his first love, the only person in the world he opened his heart to. It scared Kageyama - he's one of those guys who doesn't want to be vulnerable to anyone. But what he felt for Hinata was so strong, a realization that he couldn't deny no matter how hard he try.

And the moment Hinata told him he love him? That was probably the happiest moment of Kageyama's young life.

They're still young, they just started highschool. People would probably tell him this was all puppy love, a fleeting emotion that would soon turn into a beautiful memory he would love to reminisce once he's grey and old.

Was it really?

Because if this was all momentary, then why do he see his future with Hinata? He may be young, but Kageyama already knew that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with Hinata. He can see himself and Hinata with wrinkles and grey hairs, just the two of them in their own home.

When they graduate high school, they will leave this place and enter university. They could also rent a small apartment for the two of them - they will be free and happy, away from all the chains of discrimination of their small town. That will be the start of their beautiful life together. Then when they graduate university, they will be able to find a suitable job for them, earn a lot of money to buy a house both of them could call their home. Then when the right time comes, they can get married - and about kids, well.. they can cross the bridge when they get there.

Just thinking about everything that he and Hinata could do in the future makes Kageyama's heart squeeze in a pleasant way.

He could only see a future with Hinata in it. Because as cheesy as it may seem, Hinata is his now, tomorrow and without a doubt his forever.

But everything is shattering and it's my mistake. Only fools fall for you.

But what Kageyama didn't anticipate was Hinata himself.

He knew Hinata love him. There's no doubt about that. And when people love one another, that clearly means they always want to be together, right? Kageyama's unsure because it's the first time he felt this way but these are his genuine feelings so he decided there's nothing wrong with wishing for Hinata to be his for always.

However, he soon realized that love alone is not enough to make a relationship last.

tbc

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This is nearly finished so you don't have to worry about the update. It just turned out to be longer than what I had planned so I divided it into three parts. Part II will be up by tomorrow.

- Akaichi