Rebel Yell (Ashley Purdey)

Stained glass eyes and colourful tears

Rogue POV

I stay still as I lies ten to Ashley curse himself, I don't want help I just don't want to be here. It's not my fault I didn't die when I was supposed to or that I want to try and move on from this planet. He only cares about me because I'm a fan and that's all I'm ever going to be. I put my hand on my face as if to muffle the sobs that was threatening to arise from my throat. Tears rolling slowly down my face leaving silvery trails of water in their passing.
Soon he got up and kept walking but slowly, obviously looking for me. "Rogue.... I know your there, if you're not then I look like a total doof but what I'm trying to say is that, your a fan and I want to know more about you, I love our fan base and if I can stop one person from committing suicide I will because that helps us stay strong. Our experiences are who we are. Please come out even if you may not want to talk to me please get Lacey to look at your wounds...." He says trailing off at the end. His passionate words ringing a chime in my ears as I slowly stand up and walk towards him while wiping away my tears. He gives me a hug of which I don't return. We walk in absolute silence on out way back to my worn down cabin.
The windows are broken and the roof is a little patchy but does the job of keeping the rain out. The door is hanging slightly on its old rusty hinges and the wood has slightly browned since it's good old days. You can tell that's it's much past its prime days but I love it just as mush as any other house of whom I may someday own. Outside is a thick layer of bushes to hide the house from view and behind a beautiful lagoon with shimmering water and beautiful trees. I used to come here as a child but it seemed when all went to shit I was stuck in this cabin.
"Rogue!" Lacey yells as she grabs my hand and pulls me back into the house he'd hair following her as she runs inside tugging me along with her. She shoves me on the bed and begins working on cleaning the cuts her dads steel toe boots made on my stomach as well as taking time to assess the wound on my head. She decided to stitch it with the little amount of clean thread I had left. She took to work, moving my long white hair out the way so she could get to it and slowly sticking it back together before grabbing some ice from my freezer and wrapping it in a small flannel and passing it to me to hold on my head and any other affected area of which is of my choosing. I give her a hug a offer her a small ghost of a smile. I see Ashley staring over from where he is sat on the other side of the room with Andy. Weakly I offer a smile at him and he smiled right back but bigger and better than ever. Him and Andy come over to Lacey and I as she begins to wipe off the blood on my clothes and body aswell as trying, without succeeding to get the red out my hair.
I stared at Ashley he had lines that looked like tear streaks though his war paint and it was the same with Andy, both wore them with pride as they strode over to us their long deer legs taking very long steps. Ashley smiled at me and offered his arms out as if for a hug. I slowly but surely put my arms around his waist and gave him a small hug back. He held me a moment as if I was glass that might smash into one million little pieces. Pulling him closer I whisper in his ear "thank you," and then I gently smile st him and he hugs me tight his arms snaking around my back. "We have a conclusion" Andy says as he looks at Lacey hopefully a small smile gracing his face and his long fingers gripping eachother in anticipation. "You two will move in with us" Ashley says looking st me for some kind of basic emotion. I look at him my face flat and no emotion showing. "No." I say as I turn away not looking at them. Lacey looks at me shocked her face showing the evident expression of worry. "Rogue may not want to but I will." She says as she looks at me with a grin. I glare at her with my best death glare. "I have no problem with that." I state as I walk away from them into the bathroom my bangs covering my face. "I'll visit," Ashley says happily as if he was some kind of child that was high on so many sugars it wasn't possible. "Okay." I state as I shrug my shoulders and stand facing a away from them with my back facing them. Slowly I heads shuffling and then the sound of the door closing and just like that went Lacey, the person who promised to never leave me no matter what. The person who promised never to leave me with my thoughts again all alone. But mod course what has she done the exact thing she said she wouldn't. But that's what everyone does right. God fucks up and leaves us to deal with the issues he has caused for us. I lay down on my bed staring at the patchy roof with broken plaster falling down. One solemn tear dripped down my face making its lonely way down the path on my cheek. "I walk this lonely road, the only one I have ever known and it's only me and I walk alone." Maybe another day this will all be better.