I've lost myself in losing you. Your voice.
God, that voice you took with you. It's left me silent.
I've lost your physical touch, and God,
That touch you took with you. It's left me reeling.
I reach up to the sky, hoping that I'll be able to reach you.
But I can't reach you, and I can't see you. And I can't help but confess
How much it hurts not to feel you.
You know. You know. You know.
All I know is with you. You know I do,
Beg God to take me with you. So I reach for you again,
But I come back empty, senseless without you.
You. All there ever is. Just you.
I need you. Close my eyes, I spin,
I don't stop, not even when I fall,
Because if I hit my head real hard, then maybe you'll appear.
And that's all I beg to God. To you.
Fuck.
All I want is you.
I keep losing. The seconds tick by. Hours. Days. I can't stop losing.
Please...
Trace back the time. I'll keep you safe.
I won't let you go. I swear I won't. You're all I need.
It's twisting me—your absence.
FUCK!
I can't do this without you.
I'm stroking your invisibility.
Suck me into you. Just take me into you.
Absorb me. I'll become you.
Come home to me. I'll never let you go.
I'll keep you right here, within my soul, and I'll never let you go.
Just come back to me. Smile at me again.
Tell me you're okay. I can't take the thought,
Of all the pain you went through. It kills me.
I want to soothe you. I want to kiss away your terror.
I'll keep you safe. I'll always hide you. I won't let anyone see that now;
You're just a shadow I hold.
I can't lose you. God,
That boyish, crooked, lopsided grin,
Sitting below your blinking gaze. I just,
I picture it. Standing still.
Like a picture.
I've lost that, too.
Every time I see you now, I want to kiss you.
I wanted to then, but you were always unreachable.
More so than now.
A lot more now.
Give me your death, and I'll give you my beating heart.
I'll give anything I have just to have you back.
So stop leaving me. Stop making me lose you.
I'll wake you up, beg you to stop. I'll keep begging until you listen.
Turn back. Don't keep running. Take me with you.
Don't make me lose you.
Just stay right here. Next to me. Against me. Entwined with me.
Don't make me lose you.
Keep me inside you. Never release me. I'll shine with you.
Don't make me lose you.
I'll become a star too. I'll keep my eyes wide open. I'll dance your silent tune.
It'll be a magical retraction. It'll keep me from losing you.
Stay with me.
I'll become your wings, just promise me you'll reach down for me.
Don't make me lose you. Losing you...
I've lost myself in losing you.
