Hey it's FRANNY again Clare wants me to update for her so enjoy!
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Clare's POV
I sat at the table of our beach house while Harry cooked dinner. I was nervous because I didn't want to eat but I knew they would think something's wrong I could make up an excuse but I think someone would question it I'll just take a walk and skip dinner! Yes no one will question that. I hope...
Faiths POV
I was getting my plate full of Tacos. Clare wasn't back yet. I'm starting to get worried about her she hasn't been eating like anything and she's starting to get skinny. Just then Franny BURST into the room and said "we need to talk."
She grabbed Lexi's arm and dragged her along and yelled "OI PERRIE." And she followed us into the bedroom.
Franny's POV
"Has anyone else thought Clare's been... Different lately?" I asked and they all nodded slowly. "I think she starves herself." Perrie Said. "Me too." "We have to talk to her right now I heard the door open I'll go get her." Lexi said. We stayed silent as she left the room coming back with Clare and two plates full of atleast 12 tacos.
"Clare we know about your eating disorder and don't try to deny it please Clare you might be mad but we want to help your not helping yourself your hurting yourself and we want to help you get through it." Faith said calmly. We were expecting Clare to outburst but she just cried and cried. "I know what it's doing to me I know I'm slowly killing myself but once you start it's just so hard to stop." she said crying. "Clare can I talk to you alone for just 5 minuets?' I said motioning for them to leave While she nodded.
I took in a deep breath as I began to tell the story I've never told anyone in my life. I have a history of starving myself that nobody knows about. I don't do it any more and i haven't for the past 6 years! "Clare when I was 15 I decided I was fat so I tried exercise but no matter how much weight I lost I didn't like myself do I began so starve myself only drinking water and never eating food was my worst enemy And I never wanted to
Eat when I got really skinny my mom said something about it and the next second I collapsed and I was in the hospital. The doctor explained I was having heart problems because my body was eating that muscle and I hAd to start eating again or I would die. That scared me so much that I wanted to eat but I didn't want to put all that hard work to waste. All the not eating but they talked about sending me to a camp like thing where they make you do stupid exercises and things but I wouldn't go I just started eating healthy and not exercising but now I've given up on eating healthy and just worked out for two hours everyday so I can eat whatever iw ant! But that's bad you should exercise and eat healthy but whatever..." Clare looked at me she had finally stopped crying and said "I want to try I don't want to got to the hospital and almost die. Will you help me get through this with full on support?" she asked as if I already wasn't about to shove all 12 tacos down her throat. "Absolutley! Now I want you to take the first step and eat a taco. It's gonna be hard but lets see." I said inspecting the taco because of my exercising and weight loss thing I know the amount of calories in a ton of foods. "hmm about 356 calories. It's not bad Clare." as soon as I set it down in front of her she slowly picked it up and took a bite. She had a happy but sad look on her face and I knew that feeling it was the happiness that your getting out of you anorexia and the sadness that your ruining all your work. "Clare don't be sad this isn't a bad thing I know it's hard but youll get through this. I yelled for the other girls and they came back in the room and smiled at Clare who was still upset ambit happy at the same time. It's like that for a week or so but you get over it.
Clare's POV
What Franny said made me really think and I'm going to try as hard as I can to stop not eating. I think with my friends help I can have a fresh start and I need to apologize to Louis... I'm on period and I feel bad about yesterday I really do like him but sometimes I just snap and I'm not stressed when it happens I just dot. Feel like laughing along I feel like giving up and just wanting everyone to shut up. Harsh I know but I'm on period what can I say?
"Louis" I called knocking on his door. He opened it up with a confused look on his face " Clare hi come in." he stepped to the side and let me in. I sat on his bed and said "Louis I'm sorry for how I acted yesterday yes I'm on my period and I'll snap at times and I'm not perfect so I'm sorry but I just want you to forgive me." "Clare it's okay I shouldn't have said that" he said smiling. "Lie with me I'm tired?" he asked and I gave him a questioning look but decided to anyways I'll leave when he falls asleep. He finally fell asleep and I got up to leave but he grabbed my hand and said "No please don't go. Please." I tried to leave but he wouldnt let go so i just just lie back down next to him falling into a peaceful sleep.
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Daw' I just love a good cute scene!!!!! I think this is pretty long I mean it's took me a while to write.... Hope you liked!
