TOO SHY BUT I DON'T KNOW WHY?

To her very last words for me..

Finally... I had to bare that I had lost her forever. God often gives things to us but takes it away the good things very soon!

He finally asked me to open the diary. I opened it where all these things we talked and shared were written,my heart was already pumping out of excitement. I grabbed the diary and started reading few pages.....

It says..

[HE IS MY BEST FRIEND AND I COULD'NT AFFORD LOSING HIM. HE IS VERY CUTE AND SHY BUT HE REMAINED SILENT MOST OF THE TIMES. HE BARELY LOOKED AT ME,BUT I HAD A SECRET CRUSH ON HIM. AT THAT VERY POINT FEW OF MY FRIENDS TOO SAID THAT HE LOVED ME SO MUCH. I ALWAYS REMAINED HAPPY WHEN HE IS AROUND . HE GAVE MADE GOOD FEELINGS WHEN I WAS DOWN. HE CARED FOR ME EVERY MOMENT OF HIS LIFE. HE ACTUALLY HAD AN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE WITH ME. BUT I NEVER GAVE HIM THE RESPECT HE DESERVED MOREOVER I SOMETIMES FELT LIKE I DON'T DESERVE HIM AT ALL!!

HE IS SO SPECIAL FRIEND OF ME. I COULD NOT BELIEVE MY LIFE WITHOUT HIM. I LOVED HIM SOO MUCHH!

I ALWAYS WAITED FOR HIM TO PROCEED BUT HE NEVER DID. I USED TO TALK WITH EVERY GUY WITHOUT SHYNESS BUT WHEN IT COMES TO HIM, SOMETHING ACTUALLY STRUCK MY HEART.IT ACTUALLY COMES OF MY CHEST, WHEN I TALK TO HIM WHEN WE ARE ALONE. SOMETIMES I FELT THAT HE LOVED ME SO MUCH BUT HE NEVER SAID TO ME.I SHOULD GHAVE LEFT MARRIAGE AND MOVED TOWARDS HIM. I SEARCHED HIM EVERYWHERE IN AND AROUND HIS AREA,BUT HE SEEMED TO DISSAPPEAR.

HE LEFT ME BROKEN!

I THINK HE HATED ME AS I MARRIED SOMEONE ELSE BUT I REALLY WANTED TO APOLOGIZE HIM AND TELL HIM MY FEELINGS AND ASO ASK HIM TO STAY WITH ME FOREVER. SOMETIMES IT SEEMS LIKE HE MARRIED SOMEONE ELSE AND GET SETTLED IN THE FOREIGN COUNTRY AS HIS DREAN SUGGESTED BUT I HAD NO MONEY TO TRACE HIM. I FOUND A BOY WHOM I GAVE HIS NAME. IT WAS IN HIS MEMORY. I LOVED HIM SO MUCH BUT COULD NOT TELL AS WHEN IT CAME TO HIM I WAS TOO SHY,BUT I DON'T KNOW WHY?]