Breaking through his walls

Prologue

Bring me back to holding hands in the rain,
I swear I'd ease your pain.
Lift you up so you could finally see
The love you are to me.

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                   Introduction

I have grown a un denying hatred towards boys, now I know most girls in middle school fawn over boys about how cool they are and have little crushes on them but I on the other hand started disliking them more and more after middle school started,

I can't stand them they are violent, noisy and uncivilised but amongst their midst is Jace lander,

He's different somehow, he has a small build and his voice is girlish maybe that is the reason I'm fine with him

"Hey Zach what are you doing" Lilia shouted to him on the play ground, Zachary smith was my neighbour I used to think he was slightly different from the other boys but that thought vanished when couple days back at lunch he boasted that he lives near me and we our neighbours and the boys started laughing and whistling saying Zach was pretty lucky

And Lilia, She is the only friend I have, she's my best friend other girls don't like me and my ways but I don't care unless I have Lilia at my side
"Lilia! we're playing cops and robbers wanna join us" Zach shouted to Lilia,
Lilia has a big crush on Zach

"Yea I sure do, come on belle"
I thought about it for a second in my mind that Playing with boys is a little.... But all my discomfort was gone when I saw Jace with them

"Okay" I smiled

"Okay let's start" Zach said

"ROCK, PAPER, SCISSORS" everyone shouted in unison

"I'm the cop run fast, I'm coming for you Zach" Lilia announced

I run as fast as I can but still slower from the others because it's been a long time since I played. I find a hiding place on the back of a big bush but oh I see Jace over there and he shy's away a bit at the sight of me

"Umm I'm sorry I'll find another hiding place" I say
"Shh it's okay there coming"
He grabbed me and put me to his side, surprisingly he is strong,
The bones on his arms are really prominent and the nape of his neck is cute too

"that was close I was almost seen" he says holding his breath and leaning a bit closer to me
I smell the nape of his neck *sniffles* *sniffles*
it smelled of shampoo and a little bit of sweat was that what all boys smelled like?
Suddenly lander turns his head to me
Oh my god what if he has ESP and knows about what I'm thinking?
Sorry I'll stop thinking about these weird things lander
"Hey doesn't it looks like someone's hiding there" the cops shout
"Let's check"

"Stay here" lander says and rushes out of the bush and he's caught he's so stupid he did that so I could be safe, so a robber can only break out if an ally touches him right I'm gonna save him

"Ahhhhhhhh I'm coming to save you wait for me lander" I bellow as I run full aware that my face must be beat red with all the running

"Hahaha" he's laughing why is he laughing? I stop right there in my tracks, space out and get caught and am stuck in the same circle as him, now that I'm in the circle I realise that it's kinda small where's my personal space

"I was trying to help you sorry" I apologise
"Yeah" he says

what do you talk about in this kind of situation? Or maybe he doesn't want to talk to me