finding the boy {christian akridge}

chapter four :: embarrasments and mean girls

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i was sitting next to christian and my whole body was shaking. my hands were sweaty and my hair was beginning to frizz in the back. i knew something like this was going to happen.

i look over at christian who quickly looks over at me. he smiles at me and i quickly look away.

god, i'm an embarrassment.

suddenly i hear him yawning. then his hand reaches on to my shoulder.

highly cliché but überly romantic.

i lean in to him and snuggle myself in to his grasp. he smelt like cologne but not the manly kind but the good smelling kind. not too strong, not to soft.

"hey, it's only trailers. do you wanna leave real quick?" he asks, whispering very quietly so no one could hear.

i nod, unsure of what to expect. was he going to murder me or seduct me? i'm only 15! well, he's 15 too. and nate archibald lost his virginity to serena van der woodsen when he was 15. okay, enough gossip girl references.

we walk to the bathroom, which is deserted because everyone is in the theater. christian leans in and closes his eyes.

uh oh.

i stop him with my hand and try to stare in to his eyes and figure out what he is implying by this. he surely looks confused.

"what are you doing?" he questions, confusingly.

i quickly try to come up with an answer.

"you're just going too fast...that's all."

i am the dumbest person known to mankind.

"oh, i'm sorry," he starts.

"let's just go back inside."

he walks with his face red in embarrassment.

a boy tried to kiss me and i shut him down! i am a wreck.

we sit down, being as awkward as awkward can get. because of this, i don't think i'll be paying attention to the movie.

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that was the was the most awkward first date ever.

everytime i looked at christian, he looked back. then i looked at my shoes. what's on my shoes!

he smiled a bit and chuckled and giggled (until the awful lady in front of us said 'you teenagers should stick to illegally downloading your movies!') but overall is was awkward.

christian and i were walking on the sidewalk to the bus station that was about 2 blocks away.

"so, did you like the movie?" he asks.

"i've watched 'star wars: the force awakens' 3 times in counting! of course i like it," i respond.

he smiles and looks down like a cheesy (hot) character from a hallmark movie. yet, i really like it.

"you're stupid in love with star wars," he acclaims. it's true, i've watched all of them.

"no dip, sherlock."

then, we see the bus pull up in front of us.

"well, you coming?" the bus driver asks.

we smile to ourselves and it seems that we are the only people on the bus.

we sit in the backseat, right next to each other. i think he wants to kiss me. we were within breathing distance. we gaze in to each other's eyes like dumb kids in the backseat of an empty bus.