The girl no one wants <\3

Heartbreak

Author Note: the songs I post on the chapters are songs that help me through a hard time.
As I blasted music forgetting the pain I feel in my life I have suicide thoughts going through my head. "Ugh I can't go through this anymore it hurts to much" I don't go to my blade I text James and he calls me immediately telling me I'm an idiot for thinking that hurting myself is the only way to release the pain,(he's a pain in the butt) but a good Freind. I still have feelings for him it's confusing so I go on Facebook and message a guy I have been talking to for a few days his name is David. He's tall sweet and cute he asked me out 😱. I was shocked but I said i don't know you that well and he told me he's friends with James so I'm like ok this might get him to notice me. So we plan on hanging out the next day and its heaven a guy actually noticed me and thinks I'm beautiful. I wear a short sleeve shirt around him for the first time and he noticed my scars and he said I'm still beautiful with them I couldn't stop smiling for the first time in a long time I went to sleep with a smile on my face. A month has passed and I'm starting to feel like this is actually going to last little did I know I was going to have my heart ripped out of my chest.
The next day I text David asking him sweetly if he can hang out but of course he can't he has to go to a friends house ugh I hate guys. But he still texts me flirting with me making my heart race and other things happen ;). But out of the blue I get this weird text saying "stay away from David your an attention seeker and just want one thing from him so do us all a favor and leave him." I get upset I called him telling him if that true and he said he can't deal with my life anymore so I sob and cut all night until I fell asleep.