I know I complain a lot. I know I've told you all I would rather be shot at then have as good of life that I have now. Yes it's confusing. Let me explain. They have a reason to feel helpless, lost, and upset. I have no reason. My life is fine, I have a roof, a house. I have family a few friends. Education and activities. So why can't I be happy? That's what I want to know. I just don't understand.... But I keep going.. I'm scared. I'm scared to give up because I know I have no reason to....
