ODD ONE OUT.

CHAPTER 2

so i had never been to church because i thought they would make fun of me but i am going tomorrow and i really hope they accept me and i want to learn about God because He is real and He loves everyone even fatty addie.

sunday: i went to church and nobody judged me i felt welcomed!

monday: i don't know why i am still here i have no reason to live im a nobody who will never be married or have friends or be accepted i wish i could be pretty.........

here is what the teacher said to me today when i got the answer wrong :,(

"no wonder you get bullied you are ugly sickly gross dirty and now we can add stupid to the list"

that made me cry and miss matts gave me detention because my stomach was growling.

one time i even met a celebrity and they wouldn't take a picture because they said i was too ugly.

imagine how that felt..................................

but one day a girl brought me food while i was crying at the lunch table (i'm not given lunch money)

and her name was faith.

she was kind and was the only person who spoke kindly to me and she eveen did bible study with me!

i felt bad though because she was bullied for being my friend but she didn't seem to mind. which i thought was weird and i don't know how she did it.

these are the things that she told me about bullies.

1. words are just words

2. they are also humans.

3. IF THEY GET PHYSICAL DEFEND YOURSELF

4. NOBODY deserves to be bullied.

5. don't feel self pity

6. pray for them to realize who God is.

and i just didn't believe any of those except the last one.

then she introduced me to alyssa her friend and she was also very kind and i cried because they were so kind.

alyssa was a blonde with really bright blue eyes that people found beautiful!

faith was a brunette with dark green eyes that everyone loved!

i was a black hair thing with a blue eye and a brown eye how did we fit together as friends?

i have no idea how the actually talked to me without throwing up or making fun of me.

hey wanna hang out?

they asked and i was just like yes yes yes yes yes yes a thousand times yes!

and then my foster mom walks in and says nope your not allowed to hang out with anyone outside of school you piece of junk!

and she kicked them out.