Who's That Girl

Reflection on Passion

Despite my fall out with CMT, I still had a passion for acting, and still do. It brings me so much joy, being someone else, especially during a time when I didn't know who I was myself. For the past couple years, I've been reading up on the acting business and have landed leading roles in school plays. I plan to go to a prestigious drama school, or a school with a prestigious drama department, and graduate with flying colors. Then I hope to go on to become a well-known actress that makes headlines for her outstanding performances in film and television, rather than her drama.

Except, most actresses are expected to have a mid-career crisis involving drugs, alcohol, sex scandals, or eating disorders. Or all four. And with a history like mine, you can imagine my mother's feelings regarding this dream of mine. She's afraid, so afraid that I'll have a relapse, and even worse, a relapse because of the spotlight. She actually is worried more about how I will handle rejection because she does not believe I will ever reach the spotlight. And all her worries and fears and unsupportiveness of my dreams are rational. I just chose to ignore it all. I'm going to chase my dream.