Johnny Knoxville

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Johnny's POV
I woke up and walked to the bathroom and changed the bandage on my stomach I felt like throwing up again but I didn't. I walked in the hall and smelled some breakfast that the guys made and it was probably horrible but it's the thought that counts.  I knocked on Evie's door to check on her and peeked in she was still in my bed sleeping with the scrap book. She was so upset that she cried in her sleep. I'm just so angry at myself I could have done more to help Sandy but I'm still not giving up.
Evie's POV
I was awake at about three in the morning and couldn't go to sleep knowing Sandy wasn't in my bed. I just sat in my bed crying some more because I knew there was nothing I could do. Time eventually did pass and someone knocked on my door I jumped in my bed and acted asleep. The door shut and I peeked enough threw the door to see it was Johnny. I got up and reached down to pick up Sandy and realized again I started to cry again but wiped my eyes and grabbed my backpack. I walked over to Johnny's closet and grabbed one of the hand guns out of the safe. I tucked it in-between my belt and pants behind me and under my shirt I walked out to the kitchen and all the guys looked at me surprised to see me out of my room. Ryan got up and walked over to me he kneeled down in front of me and faced me towards him with both his hands and said I know it hurts. He pulled me in for a hug I stated to hug him and cry. It's alright he said rubbing my back. I pulled away from the hug and reached into the fridge I grabbed three of Johnny's coronas I thought I would want Coors but no coronas was fine I handed one to Ryan and stated drinking mine. Ryan grabbed it and said" WOW slow down If your gonna have one of those it's going to be one and slowly alright." I looked at him almost ashamed and took the beer back and went bottoms up and chugged it and threw the bottle at the wall and said" says you" I looked down at the floor and started crying again and said "I'm sorry" "It's alright" Ryan said. I walked back to my room but then told Johnny I was going for a walk. Johnny told me no so I went back to my room and then snuck out I felt bad but I just had to do this. I ran on the wet black streets one foot In front of the other and walked up to the grave yard and visited my moms grave I told her hi and that I was ok and that Sandy might be visiting her for good I put a bundle of dandy lions on her grave because that's what I did for her as a kid. I felt the gun behind my belt but left it. I walked to my favorite park and and sat on the swing that my mom pushed me on and then walked to the middle of the big field we would have picnicks on. I sat down in front of the one oak tree in the middle of the field and admired it because that's were my mom would read me my favorite books and I would sleep on her lap and there it still was her gentle carving of our first names stayed that tree. I started to walk back to the house feeling every palm tree I walked by my chest was starting to feel as if someone placed 1000 bricks on my heart. All I wanted was my mom but no It couldn't be that way I couldn't even have my sister the thought made me feel as if I had the responsibility of hundreds of deaths but it was only 2. Two of the people I love most in my life my beloved mom and sister. I wasn't the one keeping them safe they were keeping me safe. From behind me I heard a car slam on the breaks it was a black van with no windows. Rick jumped out of the van and ran at me before I could do anything he threw a brick at my head and knocked me out. When I woke up I was in Ricks house I had a bullet proof like vest on with a screw on the back keeping me on a chain which was attached to a pole. Sick bastard was keeping me on a leash like a dog. He wasn't in the room yet so I pulled my phone out but It was dead and I didn't tell him or fire the gun so he wouldn't know it was there I got up and started yanking the shit out of the chain and kicking the pole I tried to pull the vest off but it was pad locked. I started breaking all his crap in his garage and pulling anything I can use for a weapon but it was useless so instead I sat and waited and started planning. Out of breath and almost asleep I here a very familiar small voice.