Him

I'm Sorry - A Poem

I'm so sorry
sorry that it's taken so long
for me to learn the truth
The truth about you

I was thinking about him
the way he was not afraid to speak his mind
The way he dressed up in drag
The way he loved writing

The way I was sad that he left
The way I would no longer see him
No longer asking about class
or about his current writing piece

Then I thought about you
about the way you cheered me up
I no longer grieved over his absence
I began thinking about how happy you made me

Then I came to notice the similarities
The similarities between you two
It seemed too close to not notice
You were almost the same person

You had a lot of female friends
Because you were both flirts
Although he had a girlfriend
and you didn't

You didn't care what anyone though
He expressed it by wearing drag
You did it by doing whatever you wished
Defiance against society

You both were writers
You wrote as a small hobby
He did it as a future career
Both published authors and poets

Did I subconsciously replace him with you
Maybe I thought that you
practically a soul twin
could replace him

I'm sorry
That was not my intention
I do like you
But I still care for him

I miss him and the way he wore drag
The way he didn't care
and the way he wrote
I miss him

I miss him
I'm still grieving
I miss you
Please come back