poetry // thoughts

you.

so you have been in my life for over a year,
it's honestly so nice to have you around.
I remember the day we first met,
you came up to me, so soft and sweet.
I didn't really know you & you didn't know me too.
but once we met,
your hazel eyes pierced my blue ones, your smile, oh so youthful still stays forever in my memory.

each day I had something to look forward to,
you.
you captivated my thoughts, actions, life.
you,
you made me feel love,
hurt,
anger,
jealousy,
& sadness.
i'm sorry,
sometimes the bad memories outweigh the good in my judgement.
but despite how much pain you've caused me.
I still love you.
I don't think you love me though.
you're confusing.
you say you love me,
then you love another.
you say you need me,
then you pretend like I don't exist.
you say that you want me,
then you do fine without.
but no matter how much you hurt me,
no matter how much you act like you don't need me,
no matter what you say that angers me,
i'm still in love with you.
because it's always been,
you.