City Lights (A Motionless in white fan fiction)

Hatefuck

I was laying in bed listening to HateFuck by miw. I smiled singing and screaming along quietly. Then I heard the door open my heart started racing and I couldn't move. As the foot steps got closer I heard my step dad saying "Worthless piece of shit! Come out right now!" I tensed and acted asleep hoping he would believe I was. I was wrong.... I heard my door burst open and he grabbed me by my arms and threw me against my wall on the other side of my bedroom. I whimpered in pain a little bit hoping he wouldn't hear. But, he did and that what makes him beat me more. He started punching my face and
kicking me. I felt a tear escape my eye. The pain filled my body then he got on top of me. I felt him put his hands around my neck and start strangling me. He stopped before I passed out. I was trying to get as much breath I could. He smiled evilly and un do his pants. I was crying hard just the feeling on him on me again. "Take off your clothes now!" He spoke with pure evil in his tone. I did what he said shaking from fear crying.
After he left and raped me, I was laying on my floor in a ball crying. Then I got up and wanted to get the feeling of him on me off. So I walked in my bathroom connected to my room and got in the warm shower. I whimpered in pain over all the bruises he made on me. My nose was bloody and I sighed and got out of the shower washing my face. I put on my Motionless in white shirt and my sleeping with sirens feel short shorts. I sat ?in the bathroom floor and got the blade off my side smiling at the metal razor blade. I pulled up my bracelets seeing all the scars new and old spread out all over my skin. I drug the blade on my skin smiling at the sight of the blood flowing from my arm. I moved to my leg and made a couple cuts. I watched the blood flow for about five minutes. Then washed it off putting on my bracelets on and crawled back in my bed. I woke up the next morning looking at my recent cuts and smiled. I looked at my phone 6:30AM I might as well get dressed. I put on my black ripped skinny jeans with my Motionless In White "Burn baby burn" shirt. I smiled and put on my black converses and put on pierce the veil jacket. I looked in the mirror all I saw was fat and uglyness. I sighed and started straightening my hair and teasing it. I put on my black eyeliner and other make up. Then I grabbed my book bag and phone with headphones and walked out the door. I smiled and put in my headphones as city lights began to play. "Paralyzed by my envy of the night. I am lost with out you here." I sang along while walking to the hell hole I called school. I walked in the school and everyone stopped and started screaming "Emo" "add another cut but make it deep" "Go kill yourself" "Whore!" I felt the anger and sadness build up and signed and ran to my locker and grabbed my stuff from math. I slept in math. The next class was science. I signed and started writing song lyrics and paid no attention. Next was lunch I grabbed a water and sat down at a table with no one. I began singing quietly and screaming drinking my water. The next two classes were hell I slept the time away when people weren't screaming "Worthless emo whore." I walked home and heard a car horn behind me. I screamed and ran out of the busses path falling. I ground and got up when one tallish sortish boy with angel bites and gauges ran towards me. I stopped and realized who it was. Oh my fucking god it's josh balz from motionless in white.