Thoughts That Pass..

It's Not a Joke..

Why do people joke around about suicide, self-harm, rape, depression, abuse and whatever else...?

None of that is a joke! You should never 'jokily' tell someone to go kill themselves, because you never know if they actually take that into consideration. You have no idea what some people think of, what some people have gone through or what they do behind closed doors.
If you joke about that kind of stuff, then you instantly lose complete respect from me. That's the lowest kind of low...

In Australia, nearly every 3 hours, someone kills themselves...

On the 9th of February, this year (2016), I talked one of my best friends out of suicide, to the point where I had to get a hold of the police to make sure she was ok, because I was at school and couldn't exactly do much. It was so goddamn scary because I had no clue what I was doing and I wasn't sure what the outcome could've been... I'm not good when it comes to helping people, but I tried to help her because I didn't want to fail her, she is my best mate, I need her here... I would never have forgiven myself if I found out she followed through with her thoughts...
No I am not disappointed in her, or even mad at her, I will never think less of her because she needs me just as much as I need her. I understand what she's going through, I may not know the full story to everything but I just want her to know that I am always here for her no matter what, I promised her that at the start and I meant it.

After I got home from school and done what I needed to do, I went around and saw her just to make sure she was ok, she cried in my arms, and I just allowed that, I'm not good with helping out and cheering people up, but to me, it was the attempt that counted. I'm happy knowing that I have helped her to live another day...

I just hope that she's ok now... I know things can't be all better over night, but I know she's a little better than she was. I love her and everything about her, even if she can't love herself yet. I can only try to help her out as the days go by, I will not give up until I see her strong again, till I see her happy again. Yes, this may take time but it will be worth it in the end. I know she'd do the same thing for me, so till the day I see a real smile on her face, and true happiness enters her life again, I will try not to give up... I can only try to help the best I can, I don't want to fail her. I can only help if she accepts it...
A promise is a promise, and I hate breaking them...