Royal Sacrifices

Long Live The Queen

Chapter 5

"Caroline is beginning to grow suspicious, she asks so many questions that I cannot answer" Bonnie says leaning back against Kol's bare chest, pulling the rich fabric of the sheet tighter around her. An insatiable feeling of guilt washes over her for the millionth time since she rekindled her relationship with Kol. How could she not feel guilty? She is quite literally sleeping with the enemy, and lying about it to her best friend at every turn. Bonnie finds only a brief acquiescence of her shame in the fact that her relationship with Kol is purely physical now. She refuses to have feelings for him. No deep conversations, no personal connections, just sex. She is not in love with him. He is not the boy she knew. At least, that is what she continues to tell herself.

Kol smiles a little at the adorable concerned wrinkle that forms between her brows "I wouldn't worry about that too much, after the announcement this afternoon she is going to be so consumed with wedding plans that she will not have time to worry about how you spend your free time"

Bonnie's mouth twitches a little "Yeah, I guess that is true" her tone is not relieved as he expected it to be; instead it carries the implication of her sudden realization. Bonnie sits up, brushing the hair out of her face and looking around the room, she sighs "this is not right"

In a moment she has pulled the sheet off the bed to cover her exposed body and is scampering around the giant suite in search of her discarded clothing.

Kol is up even faster than Bonnie, kneeling on all fours atop the mattress he reaches out a strong arm to try and grab the girl behind the storm of clothes several times "What just happened? Why are you getting dressed?" he pouts "I can assure you I have no intention of being done anytime soon" he lifts the corners of his mouth up into his signature irresistible boyish smirk, and Bonnie pauses for a moment

"I- no. No I have to go, this is wrong," she says pulling her underclothes on and beginning to struggle with the zipper

"How can this be wrong?" he asks, genuinely confused "I think we can both agree that it feels pretty right"

Bonnie whirls around to face him, speaking her mind before she can stop herself "my best friend is getting married in six days and instead of sitting by her side I am sleeping with the man who killed her mother"

"I thought we moved past that?" He complains sitting back with his butt on the heels of his feet; why is it so hard for her to forgive him? He apologized and told her he would protect her!

Bonnie turns her head to give the man in front of her the full force of her did you really just say that?-look "No we did not move past this! We can never move past this" she says, grabbing some of her hair in frustration "but after days of you continuing to apologize I just... " she moves forward, with her dress still hanging off her left shoulder Bonnie reaches a hand up to touch his cheek "I cannot help myself. I look at you and I see the second boy I ever loved. I see the boy I met in the woods and I just...I lose control." She drops her hand "I want to see you so I convinced myself that we could do this with just sex but that is not possible. I cannot be with you and not feel" she pauses, looking at him sadly before shaking her head. No, he is a monster; her friends must always come first "so I cannot see you. Caroline is my best friend, I will not betray her like this"

Frustration runs through Kol once again, it is an emotion he is very used to dealing with having grown up with Niklaus, but the past days of trying desperately to win over the little witch once again only to be called a monster at every turn is really starting to affect him "you cannot be serious darling , what more can I do?" he sits back up on his knees, desperately reaching towards her "I will do whatever you want, just tell me"