the other day something happened that has greatly affected me.
a teacher choose my best friend and another student to represent the school.
i was proud of my best friend but confused.
i ask the teacher why she choose her and she said because she was perky and liked talking to people.
i didnt understand what that meant.
it felt like an insult.
because im perky but im an introvert.
i dont like talking in class because im afraid to be judged by the class.
but i try so hard to succeed.
my 1st period teacher asked me yesterday,
you are so lively and happy in the mornings,
but when you come into class you shut down,
now that i think about it,
its what public school has taught me.
public school taught me that if is shut down,
nothing bad will happen.
if i block myself out from the world ill be fine,
because they say that public school is where you learn to be openminded you learn to better yourself.
but ive never learned that in a public school.
and its changing everyone in a negative way,
because the teachers show us the negative ways,
they compare us to others,
they make us feel useless.
we pick up on that as if its a good thing
im tired of public schools.
im tired of school.
because all ive learned is how to fail.
