Free!ES:Sousuke/Faith:Skin And Bones

Skin and Bones

Sousuke's POV
I locked the door, turned all the water on blocking out the sound of my heavy breathing. I took off my shirt, revealing my toned, but skinny body. I walked over to the mirror and looked at my self,"Mirror lie to me, tell me who you see..." I grasped at the edge of the sink,"Maybe you won't be able to recognize me now." I put on a fake smile and it was gone as soon as it was there. "You win... You always win." I looked up at myself and noticed there was tears forming in my eyes,"This must be so fucking easy for you... All I am is skin and bones, nothing else, a shell... A pathetic one at that..." My voice cracked as I gripped harder at the sink edge and looked down as I saw tears smacking the ground and sink, my tears.

I looked up and saw my pills, I picked them up and took one as I am supposed to, the I noticed in black, bold writing ONLY TAKE ONE A DAY IF LARGE AMOUNTS ARE TAKEN REPORT TO HOSPITAL IMMEDIATLY then a dark thought came to my head, Should I end it all here, should I take more and more pills until my blood stops flowing and my heart stops beating?

At the thought I winced and tthrew the pill container across the room, it cracked and blue pills spread across the floor. I collapsed to my knees and sobbed, negative words filled up the space in my head, mocking me, tearing me apart.

Worthless
Disgusting
Useless
Unloved
Hated

I grabbed my head and looked at the ground, a pool of salty tears infront of my knees. I looked down at my body again and poked at my ribs, at each poke a new hurtful word came to my mind. I hit the wall in anger, sending my fist parcially through the wall. I began to shake out of frustration and fell into a world of darkness.

I heard a slam and looked up, Faith had broken the lock on the door and was staring down at me. She looked sad,"So-Sousuke?" She walked over and kneeled down beside me, the look of sadness in her eyes made me break down. I wrapped my arms around her and screamed into her shoulder, I could feel her jump, then gently return the hug, rubbing me back and telling me to calm down in a soft voice.

I looked up, it was 6:37pm, I had been in that bbathroom floor for 2 and a half hours,"I'm sorry..." I said to Faith in shame,"For what?" She asked,"For being so selfish..." I couldn't look her in the eye, but I guess she could tell and she forcefully grabbed my chin and made me look at her,"Listen, you aren't selfish AT ALL. You are hurting and feeling sad for yourself and I get that, I was in your shoes once too, and with that experience I will tell you, everything will get better." She looked at me,"Promise?" I asked,"Promise." She smiled and rubbed my shoulder,"Your body is perfect Sousuke, everything about you is perfect, from your head," she poked my nose,"To your toes." She dragged her finder down from my nose to my feet, making me giggle.

"Each one of your ribs are perfect, as they guard your heart. Your stomach is perfect, because when you get the butterflies, you become the cutest thing on this planet. Your hair is perfect, an adorable shag. Your eyes are perfect, bluer then the bluest blue. Your arms are perfect, as the give the greatest hugs. Your legs are perfect, as the help you run to give somebody one of your signature hugs. Your feet are perfect, as they help you rock your red and black sneakers." She smiled and grabbed my hand, I smiled in return and almost cried,"And we all know you have a perfect butt." She winked, I giggled and looked down,"Thanks Faith." I looked up again,"No problem Sousuke." She smiled,"Now let's go get a perfect lunch for a perfect boy." She grabbed my hand and help me up,"Don't I need my shirt?" I pointed to the white shirt laying on the ground,she studied my torso intensely,"Hell naw." She winked,"But first," she started,"You're gonna kill whale sharks. Turn off the water." She flipped the knob of the sink back, stopping the water flow,"Oh yeah." I turned off the bathtub water and walked back over,"You are perfect." Faith grabbed my hand and leaned her head on my shoulder,"I love you." She said,"I love you too." I smiled.