Free And Fearless

Shocked

Four weeks later...

Sunday morning I wake up to yelling and stand up from bed. Putting on a long sleeved dark blue shirt and black skinny jeans, I throw my hair up in a high ponytail and walk out my bedroom door. My brother stands there with Dustin and a couple other guys yelling at a football game. I roll my eyes and walk in the kitchen. Grabbing a energy bar and water bottle, I grab my jacket and walk to the front door.

"Where are you going" Austin asks.

"Just for a walk. Need to clear my head" I say.

"Oh, OK and get where did you go last night. I couldn't find you or Dustin anywhere" I see Dustin tense and look at me.

"I left early. Partying isn't really my thing. I think I saw Dustin run off with some girl, as I was leaving" I lie.

Austin stares at me for a while before looking at Dustin.

"You guys seeing each other or something" a guy asks.

"What no" Dustin shouts.

"Well you never run off with girls. You stopped when you where sixteen. So" Austin says.

Oh, shit.

"I didn't run off with her. She wanted to fuck me but I said no and ran off because she wouldn't leave me alone" Dustin saves us.

"Oh... OK" Austin says, still not believing it.

I sigh and walk out the door. I get to the sidewalk and flashbacks from last night come back.

*Flashback*

I walk around the party looking and staring at everyone. I cut again today and the dull stinging of the blade is still there. So when I walk into a random room and see Dustin in there with a girl all over him. The sting in my heart isn't as bad. I quickly shut the door and run out the house. In the background you can't hear the music that good and no one is out here.

The music is load until the door shuts again. I look over my shoulder and see Dustin. He stands there staring at me. His eyes flick with something I can't tell. He licks his lip before standing beside me. I look up at the stars and I feel Dustin's eyes on me.

"I didn't do that. I was trying to get her off me. I'm sorry" he says softly.

I know what he was doing. He's telling the truth but it still hurt. But why does it hurt.

"You don't have to apaligize. Your single and free you can do whatever you want with whoever you want. Don't be sorry. I should be sorry for walking in on you" I say.

"But I don't want to do anything with anyone. I want to do it with one person. I just don't know if she feels the same" he tells me.

"You should try asking her" I say.

"Sometimes its not easy. She means a lot to me and I'm afraid if I ask her. She'll run. I'll lose two people I care about very much out of it, if she does" he whispers the last part.

Two people he cares about. Like a friend. The only friend I know he has is Austin. Could he be talking about me. If I rejected him, I would stop hanging out with him and then so would Austin. No, it couldn't be me. I'm just a girl. A broken girl.

He turns to me and I turn to stare in his blue eyes. They show an intensity I've never seen before. Never thought I would see in someone else's eyes other then my brothers. But this is more then a brothers stare. He cares for me but in a whole different way then my brother. He leans in a little and I do too. My stomach twists and butterfly's explode inside me.

The music becomes loader and we step apart. A drunk couple stumble out, laughing. They glance at us but keep walking. Going around to there car or cars to leave. I hope they'll be ok. I turn back to face Dustin only to see he's gone. I frown but shrug it off. What is happening to me. I decide to leave after that. I think I like him.

*End of flashback*

But how could I. He's friends with my brother and he might not like me. The girl can be a wholenother girl. That could just be brotherly care and the achol I had messed with my mind. But I didn't have any achol. I shake my head and see a car pull up beside me.

The car window rolls down and I see, Carter. He smiles at me and I smile back.

"Let's go have fun, baby" he tells me.

I laugh and get in. But what my eye catches has my breath stop. Dustin stands a few feet away with a frown.

†Dustin's POV†

I walk out the door of the house to go after Pheonix. She walks a little while. I think about running to catch up to her but I don't know what to say. Her black hair sways as she walks. The way I confessed my care for her yesterday. I need to let her know she's the girl. The way she found me was horrible. This bitch, Erica wanted to get with me but the only girl I want to touch is Pheonix. The way she stared at me. I wanted to grab her hips. The way her lips parted I wanted to kiss her. The way her chest rises I wanted to bring her as close as I could.

I almost did kiss her. I almost told her how I felt. Let her melt into me. I wanted to so bad. But she probably doesn't like me. How could she. I'm just a boy. A broken one. I finally get the courage to catch up to her a car pulls up next to her.

She smiles and a guy yells. I frown when she opens the door and climbs in. I see her catch my eye but she closes the door and the guy drives off. Who was that? I decide to follow them.

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Hey, hope y'all like this chapter. I will give you a sneek peak to what's to come. Soon Dustin and Phoenix will be together. Also next chapter will be a little crazy. Vote and comment, please.
Peace✌