Love... Or something like that (JB love story) ON HOLD

Chapter 1

Vanessa POV

I was sitting in my english class listening to my teacher blather on about some shit i had no interest in. I was just doodling in my notebook and thinking about how happy i am that it is the last period of the school day and that it was friday. But, at the same i didn't want to go home and get beat by my mother.

The bell rang and everyone ran out of the class and to their lockers. When i got to mine i just grabbed a few books and my headphones. I could here some of the girls talking about Justin Bieber in the background. It isn't even funny how much i hate that kid. He is just a hot guy who can't sing that well who is full of himself. All of the sudden i got pulled out of my thought when my best friend Ashley came up to me and said hi in the absolute highest pitched voice possible.

"Hi Vanessa!" She squealed

"Oh...um hey Ashley!" I said a little taken back.

"So ya know that Justin Bie-"

I cut her off "uhh i don't want to here anything about...him" i said disgusted.

"Oh yeah sorry" she apologized.

"You excited for graduation!" I asked her

"Yeah super its like getting freedom!"

"I know right it will be awesome!"

"I just can't wait!"

Her phone rang and she looked at the text. "I gotta go home my mom just texted and said my brother is sick so i have to help. Sorry i'll text u later. Bye!"

"Ok bye!" I said and waved as she walked off.

Ashley had has a lot of siblings. Sometimes i just want to have my sister with me again even if she was a pain in the ass. All the sudden the high school 'popular girl' also known as 'slut girl' since she has slept with just about every guy in the school. But she has also bullied me since i have known her.

"Hey you Denessa!" Michelle said

"It's Vanessa!" I protested

"Whatever, now heres my homework now go do it!" She handed me the work and slapped me twice... And hard must i add. After she just walked away. I put the rest of the work in my bag and just left knowing that the shitty day hasn't ended yet. I am just thankful graduation is the tuesday coming up.

I got in my car and just drove to the apartment where my mother and i live in. I went up to my door and opened it. Immediately i smelled smoke and alcohol lingering in the air.

"Where have you been!" My mother yelled and ran up to me slapping my cheek where Michelle had slapped it not to long ago.

"Umm school i-i was talking to a teacher." I half lied.

"Ohh were you know! What were you in trouble again." She said breathing in my face. I could tell she had been drinking and smoking all day by the way her breath was.

"No i just had a question!" I spat.

"BULL SHIT!" She screamed at me and punched me in the stomach and slapped me a few times more before i ran off into my room and locked the door. I sat at my door and cried, and cried, and cried. Then i walked into my bathroom and took the blest blade i had and looked at it for a second. I let in sink in and slide across my skin. It always works. Its the only pain i can control. It's how i cope. I slid down the cabinets and just started crying from all of this shit. I then thought back to all the other scars i have from cutting and the one big on those goes down my arm. As i watched the blood run down my hand i had a flashback of the car accident.

**FLASHBACK***

The rain was poring outside. Mom was in the passenger side, dad was driving, and Brooke and i were in the back seat.

"Dad this radio station sucks! Please change it!"

"Ok sweetie!" He replied as he changed it. "So did u guys like the dinner!" He said looking back and my sister and I through the rear view mirror. "yeah it was so cool!" Brooke squealed and i nodded. "How was the food?!" Really goo-" i was cut off by my mother "DANIEL!" she screamed. My dad looked at the road and was hit by a semi truck.

**END OF FLASHBACK**

I stood up. I cried more and more thinking about it. I didn't notice how deep I had cut . Standing over my sink watching the blood stream down my arm. When it stopped i grabbed some beer from my fridge in my room and popped it open. I took one sip and grabbed any type of drugs i had at the moment and sat at my open window and drake and smoke. I realized i had work to do and put everything back in its places.

I did all the work and just sat in my bed wide awake thinking about how much my life had changed. I went to my lap top and logged into Facebook and Instagram. I saw everyones new post and most of them were like 'T.G.I.F' and 'OMFG GRADUATION IS IN 4 DAYS!'

I went onto google when i logged off and searched random things. I turned the computer off and went to grab my phone to text Ashley and saw it was nine o'clock.

***Text conv***

V: hey gurl!

A: hey was up

V: notin much bored

A: same here that math hw is hella crazy

V: ikr i looked at it and was like wtf is this shit i guess its what i get for not paying any attention what so ever.

A: i did and it was still hard

V: wow that teachers crazy

A: yeah i know well i gtg so c ya

V:aight

A: remember ur secute and stay sexy

V: dont start with that bieber shit again

A: ok fine bye

V: bye

*** end text conv***

I decided to go take a shower and get ready for bed. It was 11:45 pm and i still was wide awake in my bed. I don't know why but i started to thin about Justin Bieber but quickly shook the thought away and fell asleep.