Believing In Him

Chapter One

"Emma I need you to watch your brother tonight while your father, Chris and I have dinner with his girlfriend's parents."

I looked down the hall to my parents bathroom. My father walked by me and gave me his signature glare.

"Mom I would but I told you I had prier commitments."

My mom walked out of the bathroom and glared at me then my dad walked towards me and slapped me so hard that I fell on the floor.

"Emma I don't care if your best friend died right this very second you will listen to your mother and stay here is that understood?"

Tears where streaming down my face as I looked at the man in front of me. This was the man I have lived with for 17 years. Its sad that they never even remeber my birthday. I am used to this though or at least I should be they have done this ever since I could remember.

I nodded my head and got up from the floor. I walked into my room and took off my dress and through on some skinny jeans and a black tank top with a nude colored shaw. I through on my black toms and put my hair up into a messy bun, then walked downstairs.

Everyone was walking out the door but my mom stopped and turned around to talk to me.

"Emma I left pizza money on the counter..."

"But I don't want pizza."

"I don't care what you want that is what Micheal wants. Now like I was saying there is pizza money on the counter and I don't know how long we are going to be out. I love you Mikey." Then she walked out the door.

It was like I wasn't even their daughter. A few hours later Mike fell asleep and I carried him up to his room and put him in his bed. It was 10:30. I walked out of his room and snuck out of the house. The summer breeze was wonderful as I walked down the street. I didn't know where I was going, but I didn't care. It just felt good to be alone.

"Hey there, where are you headed to?" A lanky male walked up behind me and threw his arm around my shoulders "Its a little late to be walking around here all by yourself, don't you think? There are some very dangerous people around here."

I smiled a crooked little smile. " That is why I am walking around so late, so maybe I can find someone dangerous enough to handle me."

He smiled and led me to a park with a group of what I was geussing his friends. They were all laughing and passing a bottle of clear liquid around. " I assure you they wont bite you, but I might." He said with a smile. " My name is Mathew, but everyone calls me Matt."

"Emma everyone calls me Emma."

He laughed and introuduced me to the group " What exactly made you want to come out tonight emma?"

"I just needed to get away from everthing. Can I have one of those?"

" A cigarette?"

"Yes a cigarette what else would I be talking about?"

"You never know around here people ask for the craziest stuff." He laughs and hands me a lit cigarette. "Are you even old enough to smoke?"

"Whats it to you?"

"Hey Matt we are going to the house, why don't you and your new friend come with us maybe we can get a new buyer?"

"Yeah we will be there in a bit." He smiled at me and grabbed my hand. " You are not afraid of trying out drugs are you?"

"What makes you think I am?"

"Because Emma you are not one of those girls. You are naive and unlike the girls that actually do the drugs you have weight and I am not saying that you are fat I am just saying you are more than Just skin and bone"

I laughed as I started to follow behind Matt. " No I am not scared I promise I will be okay as long as my parents don't find out and you are not leaving me to be raped or something."

"Now why would I want to leave the side of a beautiful girl that looks fantastic on my arm."

I giggled and took a deep breath as we go to the front door of a small house not to far from the park. The screen door looked old and rickety. The loud hiss it made when Matt opened it was very dipleasing. The other door was open when we got there as he dragged me close behind him and walked to a room in the back of the house. It was dark in the room and had a very strong stench of weed. Smoke clouded my vision as we entered the room. There was music playing in the background but it was so soft you could beraly hear what it was, you just knew it was there. Matt tugged me on the arm and gave me a reassuring smile as he handed me an new sringe with a brownish liquid.

" I am not going to give you a lot since this is your first time trying this it may hurt a little when the needle goes in but after a couple minutes you will feel great." he leaned in close and whispered in my ear. "Don't worry I will be with you every step of the way."

He wrapped a blue band around my arm and looked for a vain. When he found one he stuck the neddle in. There was a sharp pinch and I could feel the liquid go in through my vains. There was an odd feeling then the entire room got cold. I wrapped my shaw closer to my body trying to gain more warmth than what I was getting. Matt laughed and brought his arms around me pulling me closer to his body.

"Is it suppose to be working this fast? I am not so sure that this is normal. Oh my lord what if it is because I am not normal. Am I not normal. Matty what is wrong with me. Sorry I called you Matty you probably don't want to be called Matty. I am so sorry I am rambling and probably talking way to fast for you to understand what I am saying. Great I find a cute guy and start to do and say stupid shit. You didn't even know that it was my birthday but that is because you know nothing about me."

"Okay Speedy Gonzales calm down you will be okay. The only reason it is working so fast is because you have not done something like this before just relax." Matt spoke softly with a blunt in his mouth. " I like when you call me Matty it is cute and proves how naive and pure, That is something I don't get to see very often." I smiled at him and relaxed. "Hand me your phone and I can start walking you home."

"No if you have my phone you might call my parents and I really don't need that." He grabbed the phone from my hand, and I watched as he punched in what I was assuming was his phone number then asked me where I lived. I quickly told him because my mouth started to get really dry. As soon as we stepped outside and the cool air touched my skin my body became flushed.

"You can take your shaw off." Matt whispered seductively in my ear I gigled and slowly started to take my shaw off. "I really need to get you home. As soon as you get inside text me I put my number in your phone and I am sure you wont have a problem finding out what is it under."

It felt like the walk to my house was very short. My parents car was in the drive way and all of the lights in the house were off. I walked over to the side of the house that my bedroom window was on and sighed. " My room is all the way up there Matty I don't know if I will be able to make it." He smiled at me and walked away looking over his shoulder saying that I would be okay and I would find a way up. He looked away and continued to walk. I glared at the back of his head as he diappeared. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and scrolled through my contacts to the 'Ms', he was the only 'm' in my phone so it wasn't really hard to find, I pressed the call button and put the phone up to my ear.

After about four rings he answered the phone. "Hello"

"Hey Matty, its Emma."

" I guessed that when you called me Matty." He laughed into the phone.

"I needed to call you and tell you that I have not figured out how to get into my room, and it has been five hours since you left."

"Babe you are just over exaggerating if you can't climb go in through the front door but be very quiet."

"You called me babe. Okay. Well um I guess I can let you go then so I can get inside and go to bed before I die. I feel like I haven't slept in days."

"You do that I will call you tomarrow." He hung up the phone and I slowly started to walk towards my front door, slowly unlocking it and walking inside.