Say you still love me.

Chapter 20

"Leave me alone." I said as I pushed him trying to get Harry off my bed.

"No. Get your ass up and take a shower. You stink." He said as he poked my side. I know he didn't mean anything but I flinched and made a small whimper noise. "Um... I'm sorry." I shook my head.

"It's okay." I got up and walked to the shower. Oh But it's not okay... Nothing's okay.

Louis's P.O.V

"Now Louis, what's the problem here?" I rolled my eyes as she spoke.

I mean seriously she has that clip board right there that says everything about me why do I have to tell her?

I sighed and looked up.

"Anger management issues." She nodded.

"Good." What's good about that? Honestly she doesn't understand what it's like to be in my head. "Now tell me about what happened with..." She picked up a paper from the clip board, examined it, and set it back down. "With this girl Kelly." I froze, "Lets start from the beginning okay?" I nodded slowly. "How did you two meet?" Okay maybe this won't be so hard after all... If it helps me, ill do it.

"My mum used to take me to this carnival fair thing every year, and one year she had went to get cotton candy on the other side of the park, so I climbed a tree to watch the fireworks over the lake." I smiled remembering that day. "About twenty minutes later i heard someone start climbing the tree. I looked over and saw a girl a few years not a lot younger than me only two feet away. I said something and I guess she hadn't seen me." I laughed a little. "So she jumped and fell out of the tree." I looked up at her and she was smiling at me. "I started freaking out and jumped down from the tree to make sure she was okay. She was and then we were just Inseparable." She laughed a little and I smiled. "From then on it wasn't just me anymore, it was Kelly and Louis partners in crime. Literally we would walk through town and the people who worked in the shops would put up the closed sign just so we wouldn't go into there shops." She laughed again.

"Then what happened between you two?" I sighed.

"Well I went and auditioned for the show X Factor as most people know. But what they didn't know was everyday I was there I was betraying my best friend." She looked confused. "After the live shows started I became so caught up with the boys and the video diaries and rehearsing I just stopped talking to her."

"Wait you stopped as in just you?" I nodded.

"She would call and text and leave messages but I never read them, I never listened to them."

"Why not?"

"I don't know. I honestly have no idea what I was thinking at the time. I just thought things were more important I guess."

"More important than your best friend?"

"I know! I know it sounds horrible and to make it worse I was head over heels in love with her! Like not the brother sister way, the I'm in love with my best friend way. Still I did that! I'm such a fucked up person." I set my head in my hands. I felt the rage bolting through my body, What's wrong with me?

Kelly's P.O.V

(4weeks later)

'I told you he didn't want you! Who could want you?'

I dragged the cool metal across my skin, wincing at what I was doing again.

'Why don't you just kill yourself now and get it over with? I mean really what else is there to live for?'

I shoved the razor under my pillow and began to cry. I sobbed until there was a knock at the door. I pulled my sweat shirt on and wiped my face right before the door opened.