Broken...

Chapter 2- Lost

Well I am sorry I didn't upload a lot of chapters like I said I would, but I couldn't cause I had signed out and forgot my password until one of my best friends told me it :D so now I am back on my uploading schedule tanks a lot america. Now to start the chapter. And like always italics=thoughts

~Start of chapter~

~Video entry 2~

"Hey guys....sorry I haven't been uploading anything...I just...I have been having issues lately..." I clear my throat.

"...now, for the people who actually watch these video blogs...Thank you...like my first blog video thingy...I really have nothing to say, because I can't help any of you...I can't even help myself, my friends all hate me...my parents think I am suicidal...I have no one to talk to...and nothing to say...because...I am nothing..." I start to tear up, because I know what I am saying is true...I am nothing...and everyone knows it is true...

"I'm just gonna end this video here...I am sorry..." I turn off the camera...I am sorry...something I can't even say to myself I am saying to others...I look at my scares that day...I cry silently..."i-i'm sorry" I whisper to myself...I can't do this anymore... I think and say to myself....I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE...I start screaming...I don't notice what I am doing, then I see the blood running down my arm...I see more scares appear...not from the girls but from me...I drop the knife...then I hear my mom run upstairs to my room and start screaming "CASEY", I see pitch black and faint...

"She is losing a lot of blood." I wake up and hear a doctor say as they rush me to the E.R.

"She hit a severe arterie in her wrist if we don't get her to surgery as fast as we can she could die." I see him talking to a girl doctor...she writes it all down while trying to keep up with the guys pushing my hospital bed to the E.R.

I see my mother listening into the conversation and crying, she isn't looking at me but at the doctor, she notices I woke up then she looks at me, and whispers "Its going to be ok...its going to be OK..." She repeats it as if it is for my sake and not hers.

The doctors put me back to sleep and I see pitch black...I hear the words of the doctors but can't move are feel them near by...

~In the waiting room~

"I-i can't loose...her..." I say.

"I am her mother...and the worst thing to do is make a mother wait for her daughter especially in this situation." I start getting aggressive.

"Ma'am...we cannot speed up the process of an operation, you are going to have to wait." I hear his words, they are like sharp knifes attacking me...

"You have to do something....please, that is my daughter..." I say to him again, then I hear my phone ring...its Casey's father. I look at the phone with relief.

"Ma'am by the looks of it you should take that call and stop argueing with me." He walks away and I answer pacing the halls listening to everyone word of my husbands like a rock of relief...then we hang up and I go back to waiting...

~Rachels house~

"Oh my god, our video got viewed by almost the whole school" Miranda tells me.

"Bay, what should I wear, this dress" She points to an ugly blue dress...

"I don't care Rachel..." That came off to mean...but she did make me bully my best friend...

"Someone's on her period" The girls laugh at me because of Rachel's stupid joke. I roll my eyes then get a call...its Casey's mom, I answer.

"Hello Bailey, do you know what is wrong with Casey?" I hear her voice...she is crying.

"No...why?" I start to get worried.

"We are the hospital...Casey cut herself" I stop talking...and I freeze...this was my fault...ALL MY FAULT...

"I-Ill be there in bit" I say and start gathering my stuff.

"What happened Bay" I hear Rachel say.

"None of your fucking business bitch" I open the door then slam it and walks to my car then I flip off Rachel as she looks at me through the window.

~E.R Room~

I'm I going to die...I think to myself, I have flashbacks and dreams of my life...all those memories...they are soon going to be gone...

~Waiting room~

"Ma'am...your daughter...she is losing a lot of blood...we need a blood donation from one of you in order for her to survive" All I hear is " Ma'am your daughter might die..."

"How long does she have?" I say.

"We only have enough time to test 1 of you" He says...and I freeze.

"Let it be me" I hear a voice come through the door. Its Bailey

"I have the same blood maybe...in the 8th grade we had a blood drive and we were both tested...the lady at the blood drive said we had one more thing in common with each other...maybe it was our blood..." I hear Bailey say as if her words were sent from heaven.

"Well then...let's get you strapped in, follow me" The doctor says then grabs his clipboard.

~Baileys POV~

I got tested...they run the blood through the system to see if it is a match...I wait...

~End of chap~

YAY suspence like american idol...when they MAKE YOU FUCKING WAIT FOR THE RESULTS... I mean yay...anyways I will probably upload a other chap today or tomorrow, tank you and good bye....for now