The Wind Blew Cold

Ivy
The wind blew cold against my legs. I looked down, the people reminded me of ants. So small and vulnerable from uptop but once you're beneath they crush you without a hint of remorse. The ledge was getting smaller the more i waited. I want to just disappear but is this really how? I took another step getting closer to the end inch by inch. who will remember me? No one that's who. No one really cares. they say they do but not really. That's when it happened. My leg slipped and all went black.
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Johnathan
Im sitting on the edge of my bed playing my guitar trying to find the right string and tune it. I stared at the markings for a while. "she bought me this guitar...." no we're not going there. I'm not thinking about the past. I'm not gonna let it consume me again. i got out of that hell hole once and i'm not going back. I moved to window and opened it a bit. I peered out. Out of the corner of my eye there was a dress. I don't know if i'm starting to see things or if this is really happening. It's like deja vu. It's happening all over again, but this time i won't let her fall. I open the window all the way up and lean out. She hasn't seen me yet. I lean out of the window. She's getting closer. She's close enough for me to feel the edge of her dress. I can see her making up her mind except she slips. I grab her at the last minute. I don't know weather to be extremely happy that I caught someone from their immediate death or frightened because she's still hanging on the edge of the building. I slowly pull her thru my window. She's got a deep gash from her ankle bone up to about mid thigh that's already starting to bleed and swell. There's a short walk from the window to the bathroom. The first aid kit sits helplessly in the cabinet waiting to be used.
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Ivy
I wake inside of the covers. My dress is torn and risen. I sit up and start to regain my thoughts. My name is ivy and I jumped. Am I dead?? I look around the room and notice that there's not very much here. The windows are open and there's a slight breeze coming in.A shudder runs down my spine as i try to stand.
Aaaaahhh. The scream erupted from my mouth. I can't be dead if I felt that much pain. The pain is almost unbearable. My thoughts were cut short when he enters the room. He starts to walk towards me but stops when he sees me take a step back and wince in pain. Then he speaks.
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Johnathan
I'm at the table when i heard the scream. I sprint to the sound as fast as this little apartment will let me. I enter the bedroom with caution. There she is standing at an awkward position to put less weight on her hurting leg. I start to step forward but stop when i see her step back. The look that flashed in her eyes was way too familiar with me. She didn't want to be hurt anymore.
" I'm not gonna hurt you" i said " I just want to help"
she looked around for help but it was only her and I in the room. Her eyes grew dark and cold before she finally answered.
" i'm fine" she stated " I don't need your help or anyone else's for that matter"
She didn't look fine. Her skin was pale and her hair, oily and clumped. Her once white dress was dirty from the fall. Her eyes had bags underneath indicating that she didn't get much sleep and thought about what other people thought or said about her.
"No your not. Please let me help you?" my eyes pleaded with hers. " If can't help with anything else" I paused " let me help with your leg."
Slowly she sat on the bed
"only my leg. Then i'm gone"
I made my way to the side of the bed and grabbed the first aid kit that i left there the night before.
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Ivy
As i laid on the bed i wondered why this stranger wanted to help me so bad. I don't know him he doesn't know me so why?? i thought nobody helps anybody nowadays. I must have been thinking out loud because he looked up and stared at me weird.
" I help because I can. And when someone is in need you should do as much as you can." I'm guessing he was angry because as he secured the bandage he tugged harder then needed. He definitely had some problems. I guess i said that out loud too.
"Look who's talking Miss i don't need help from anyone but wants everyone to care so i'm gonna end my life and jump off the edge of a building." He became defensive and i could see the rage emanating from his body. " So tell me. What's YOUR problem?"
i Just stared at him like an idiot. That's all i could do. I felt tears prick at the back of my eyes threatening to spill. I haven't cried since HIM....
"i gotta go."I stood without and hesitation and i tried not to look him in the eyes. The tears rolled down my face freely now. I NEED to get out of here and fast. I stood as fast as my leg would allow. I walked to the door of the bedroom and paused.
"Thanks. For everything."
I stalked out of the room and out of his life.
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Johnathan
"Thanks.For everything." I stood as i watched her walk out of my door then out of my life. I ran after her. Stupid,stupid i shouldn't have said that. that's just gonna make her want to kill herself even more. I see her almost down my block. She was walking fast. Her leg was stiff and she wasn't moving it as much as she could have been.I called out to her not even knowing her name. She turned and looked but didn't stop walking.You never know how much of an impact you have on somebody's life until they try to end it. And then reality comes around and has this screwed up way of teaching you lessons. In that moment i realized what i was what i was going to do with my life.
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Ivy
The sun was hidden and the light was dull. Much like my life. I walked for what felt years but only minutes had passed. I tried to walk as fast as i could my my leg was permitting me to do so. I heard him calling. he doesn't even know my name yet he's still calling to me. I turned and looked but continued to walk. He caught up with me as i rounded a corner. stupid leg...
"look i shouldn't have said that. You're right i don't know you and you don't know me. I don't know what you're going through right now but talk to me maybe i can help." His words weren't registering in my brain right. Why would he wanna help a total stranger?
"Why would you help a complete stranger? My own family doesn't even want to deal with me. So what's in it for you? what are you getting out of this?" I couldn't help the venom that flowed with my words.
"I'm not getting anything out of this besides being able to see you get help."
"You don't even know my name! You don't know how old i am or where i came from. So just stop!! i'm not gonna stand here and listen to you ramble on about me getting some help."
I turned and tried to step away from him. His hand reached out and latched onto my arm. He pulled me into a tight hug and whispered the words i've waited so long to hear from my family.
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Johnathan
"Why would you help a complete stranger? My own family don't even want to deal with me. So what's in it for you? what are you getting out of this?" I could feel the hurt burning through her words.
"I'm not getting anything out of this besides being able to see you get help."
"You don't even know my name! You don't know how old i am or where i came from. So just stop i'm not gonna stand here and listen to you ramble on about me getting some help."
She turned to leave and i couldn't stop myself. I grabbed her arm and pulled her close.
"I won't hurt you and I won't let anyone hurt you ever again. And i know you've been hurt but It'll be okay. You just gotta let me in. Let me help you" I spoke softly into her hair. I was sure she could hear me. I just hoped she understood me. I placed her hand over her heart. " You feel that?" she nodded her head "that's called purpose. you're alive for a reason and don't forget it."
She pulled away all too soon. I didn't want her to move it just felt to right, and all wrong at the same time.
"You need help and we'll get you some."
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Ivy
I finished talking and walked around the tight circle of people.
"Now that i'm done with my story somebody share theirs."
I stopped at a chair. Her name was susan and somewhat too quiet. I had a feeling it was her time to share, to let people know what could have happened differently, how the scars on her wrist and arms were not of something weak, but how she became strong.
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Johnathan
I walked in to see her standing beside a chair. All she needed was someone to stand by her and tell her it was going to be okay. She turned and looked at me. I gave a little wave. I started the short walk over.
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Ivy
I watched him as he made his way to beside me. It felt right. To have him by my side. I haven't known him long but, what i do know is that he cares. Sometimes too much. There was something in his eyes that made me feel safe. how his green eyes surrounded me with the feeling of warmth. But this time it was different. His eyes darted from side to side as he tried not to make eye contact.
"what's wrong?" going straight to the point. No use beating around the bush.
"I'm leaving. For good." the words were crushing me little by little. This stranger was leaving after he helped me through the most painful crisis
I had to endure while I was alive. What do I say? What do I do? Why is this so hard on me? Why does this hurt so much. I knew the time was gonna come just not so soon.
"where will you be going?" i don't know why i asked. Maybe i was hopeful that i would be able to keep in contact. Losing him is not in my vocabulary. But now that i think about it neither was love. "will you visit?"
"I can do you one better" a slight smile begin to form on his lips. "will you go with me?" he began to stutter "I know you haven't known me for very long so this is all really fast but just think about it." He handed me a plane ticket to Miami. " Theres no refunds for the tickets. So i hope to see you there." And as fast as he was there he disappeared.
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Johnathan
I was scared to death. what if she says no? what then? Of course she'll say no, you've only known her for 3 months. I continued talking to myself while walking closer.
"what's wrong?"She asked. No use beating around the bush.
"I'm leaving. For good." the words were coming out faster than they were supposed to.
"where will you be going?" i don't know why she asked.
"i'm moving to miami. To finish college." i said under my breath
"will you visit?" Those were the words i wanted to here.
"I can do you one better" i begin to smile . "will you go with me?"i began to stutter "I know you haven't known me for very long so this is all really fast but just think about it." i handed her a plane ticket to Miami. "Theres no refunds for the tickets. So i hope to see you there." with a quick smile i turned to leave.
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Ivy
I stared at the ticket in my hands. Well there's not much to lose. I walked home slowly. I knew what I was going t do. nothing was gonna stop me.
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Jonathan
I walked towards the window and loōked out. I don't see her. Well idiot of course you don't. She's not gonna leave with a complete stranger.
"20 minutes till departure time."
I begin making my way to the platform.
"sir, your ticket please." I handed her my ticket and went to my seat. Suddenly I felt a hand on my chest from behind.
"you feel that? That's called purpose. you're alive for a reason and don't forget it."

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