Mr. Bad Boy Loves Me

20: How Deep Is His Love?

A week later

Jake drives me to the football game. "I'm so excited!" Jake says, and he was bouncing around. "We have to go pick up Blake." Jake says, and I nod.

When we get to Blake's house, it isn't just Blake waiting for us. There was this beautiful, blonde hair, blue eye girl I regonized as Nikki. Blake opens the door. "Hey guys, is it fine if I bring my new girlfriend." Blake says. My heart suddenly hurts when he says that. No way. Am I jealous that Blake is dating Nikki. I mean, we obviously feel something towards each other. I wasn't sure if it was lust of love. "Yeah, sure, Nikki can come." Jake says. Nikki sits in the back next to Blake. "Madison, right?" She asks, I give her a annoyed look. "It's Madi." I say, and she laughs. "Oh, right of course. Madi."

It was a very awkward drive. Nikki was the one who started that dumb rumor about me and Jake... I despise her because of that. We finally got there, and I hopped out of the car. The boys run ahead, and I feel a soft hand on my wrist. I turn to see Nikki. "I know Blake has a crush on you. But he is mine now. You lost one heck of a boy Madison." She says, to annoy me. I rip my hand away. "Me and Blake where never together." I growl, and she laughs. "I know that, I was just saying, when Jake dumps you, and you want to run to your second option, he will be gone, Blake is mine now, you got that?" She says, and just to get her to shut up, I nod my head. But that word, when still bugged me. Jake wouldn't break up with me, right? It was kinda scary to think about. If you date you either break up or get married...

The game starts, and the team runs on to the field. Blake is the team captain. I get bored easily watching football. Half way through the game I was almost asleep. When Lauren comes and sits by me. "Wake up, honey." She says, poking my cheek. "Sorry. This is so boring." I say. Our team was winning. I think Blake made like two touchdowns already? I yawn. She laughs. "Yeah, but my boyfriend is on the team, so he made me come watch." I say. "Well, it's half way done." She says, giving me a smile. "Yeah."

After the game, I watch Nikki run onto the field and kiss Blake after he takes his helmet off. So many feelings flood over me as I watch them kiss. I feel jealously and anger. He deserved someone so much better than Nikki. Nikki was a bitch. That's what I thought of her. Sometimes Blake was a jerk, but he can be very sweet. Only for you, the words come back to me. He was only loosing his bad boy act when he was around me. Maybe Nikki wasn't lying. Maybe Blake did have a crush on me. Or maybe it was deeper than that.

But even if it was more than a crush, more that him liking me. If Blake loves me, then it is too late now. I chose Jake, he chose Nikki. But we could leave them. I couldn't leave Jake though, even though he was a jerk. But why would we be with someone we don't love? They just bring us more pain? I was always happier with Blake. Jake made me feel like vomiting. I though of those days before, how passionately Blake kissed me. The Sparks that went off when he kissed me. That I never got when I was with Jake.

How deep is his love for me? Would he do anything for me? I am going to confront him, tonight. I was going to ask him how he felt... No, I can't... Jake. I am not going to be a jerk to Jake. That would be wrong of me to cheat on Jake agains with Blake. I already did it once. I can't be the one to make Blake cheat on Nikki, no matter how bad I would want to rub that in her smug little face. But he if love more he is deep enough, I will wait for him to come to me. I won't go to him. If he loves me enough, he will come to me. How deep is his love?