Permanent Substitute [SHINHWA]

Void

After our briefing about the situation, everybody went inside the house – it seems like I am the only one who does not have any class today. I don't want to look like a pathetic brat who needs a companion so I pretended to be fully capable of existing alone.

They will be go to school for tomorrow's event preparation. Andy Oppa just told me that each of them is a head officer of different committees and departments too. Before they left, Dongwan Oppa already prepared my lunch and put it on the table for me.

Hyesung Oppa seemed to know exactly what to do. He set up the mini tent inside the trapezoid room and told me that I can go there any time that I like. I came to take a look at the mini tent that he was talking about but I was so surprised to see a family tent inside MinJinDy's room. I can't go there yet, I went down again by myself. I was so restless.

I can't help but to consider myself as an affliction for all of them. I must do something to help but how can I possibly contribute when I am that thorn in their flesh. I went to my room and shove the last key on the Pandora's box that my brother gave me. I didn't have any energy left to be excited about what it could be since I am scared to death of what could possibly happen to those six men.

I decided to wash up first to somehow cool down myself from this stressful day. I dipped my body on my personal bath tub and made all the rubber ducks squeal as they acted as stress balls. Sigh.

I decided to listen to music with the headphones that Minwoo Oppa gave me. I thought that it should relax me a bit. I went to my table and aligned all the gonggi pieces in front of their wacky pictures. I am still not ready to leave. I haven't played enough gonggi with them. I rubbed my fingers on each of their images. I can't believe I am doing this for the first time. My heart feels like it is being clutched cruelly.

I have nothing to do now that I am alone. I lazily carried my snowy white teddy bear on my lap and embraced it tightly. In the middle of my frustration, I saw that there was a name on its bow tie – LemonShuuu what?!

The handwriting was written hastily that it almost resembled like a scribble. I think I will ask Hyesung Oppa about this later when he gets back, for now its name would be LemonShu. I carried it on my back while I walk inside the house. It looks like I am here to explore it by myself for the last time. My own emotions started to betray me. I started to become gloomy. I can't imagine my life without them anymore.

I decided to get my gadgets and climb to the second floor with my soft companion. I crawled inside the tent and rolled many times until I get dizzy. So this is what it feels like to be literally alone. I checked my phone but even if I have internet, it is still not enough to fill the gap of their presence. I closed my eyes to just simply – leave and abandon the real world while laying my head on LemonShu's soft tummy.

I thought I was dreaming when I felt my phone vibrating. To my surprise, I saw "MinBong" flashing on my screen. I tried to think hard before answering and suddenly remembered that it was Minwoo Oppa's nickname. I answered it right away.

"Kahel, there've been changes of plan. You need to go here now. It seems like the Madam made her initial steps sooner than we expected. We already asked Mr. Brook to go there and pick you up." Minwoo Oppa's voice can be hardly heard because of the ongoing musical practice in the background.

"Yes Oppa. I'll be there soon." And I hanged up.

I saw some messages blinking on my screen right after my notifications got updated when I went up here. I was in a hurry that I did not bother to check it anymore. I rushed to my room. I decided to just wear a snap back because I can't go and blow dry my hair anymore and just wore denim long sleeves over a white shirt partnered with skinny jeans. I can officially say that Oppayam's running shoes is my new favourite; I wore it again right away.