Kismet

Until Here

F(x) members were done preparing for their comeback. Rehearsals and practices, recordings, mv shooting, pictorials, etc.all of these are already scheduled. On top of that, they still have their personal shows or magazine photo shoots. The schedule Krystal loves the most is filming Jkrys. She just loves spending time with her sister. Offcam, she tells her everything that's bothering on her mind especially with Sulli's relationship with a rapper.

F(x) members want Sulli to be happy. They don't mind Sulli dating someone who's really way older than her, but they love and care for Sulli like a family. Sulli grew up in SM, boarding at the dorm in such a young age. Her parents got divorced when she was a kid. With the entertainment industry wanting her and also her parents having their separate own family, Sulli opted to live in the dorm. That's why f(x) leader Victoria really tries her best to be a mother figure to her and to Krystal as well, even to the point of sacrificing her own happiness.

"Sulliyah", Krystal called Sulli who is busy talking on her phone.

" Neh, Soo Jung?", and Sulli ended the call.

"Can we talk?", Krystal asked and Sulli nodded.

" Sulli, we're both the maknae's here, right? You should listen to Vic eonnie", Krystal said.

"Why? What did I even do?", Sulli asked.

"We already started with our promotions for our third album, you should keep distance from Choiza oppa for the mean time", Krystal reminded her.

" I know. I'm listening to Vic eonnie. You don't have to remind me again", Sulli replied.

"Why does everyone keeps on telling me about this? This is so frustrating! I've lived this life since I was young. What I really wanted was to be an actress originally", Sulli burst out her feelings. Victoria, Amber, Luna and now, Krystal tells her the same thing. Their manager has been bugging her and like an old record player, keep on saying it everyday.

"My mom who only calls me seldomly, just called to tell me to be careful of my relationship with him so I won't be caught. I'm just fed up, Soojung. I'm sorry", with tears started to fall, she walked out of the living room.

" Sulliyah!", Krystal followed Sulli but she already left.

Sulli had been keeping that feeling for quite some time now. She feel like everyone treats her like she's still a child. Back in Choiza'S company, they listened to her opinion and she feels like she's free.

For the first time in a long time, I'm able to feel that I'm important, she told herself.

People tend to misunderstand her. Because she doesn't explains herself, because people think an idol is like a human being looked up to, almost perfect and flawless, she is just not that.

I'm a human. I have feelings, too. Why can't people see that instead of just my mistakes?, she asked herself.

She was so young when she joined the company. Every time she gets negative feedback, it really affects her to the core. She would often doubt herself, of who her real identity is. She tried to mold herself to what people wants her to be: sweet, innocent and childlike beauty Sulli, but she just ended up failing and still received hates and bashes. When she met Choiza and his friends, she liked his music and she feels like she can be who she wants to be, be her real self. Not what the fans wants her to be, but just Jin ri, and she's happy that finally some people likes her for the real her. Though, f(x) members loves her, she feels that they cannot understand her. Krystal also gets hate, but she gets through with it, and her family is always with her. Whereas Sulli, she doesn't really have her a mother like Mrs Jung or a father like Mr Jung, or an older sister like Jessica eonnie.