The London Institute
Home of the young girls with anorexia, bulimia, anxiety, and schizophrenia.
Also a pair of emerald green eyes that belong to a boy named Harold.
AN// I am writing this book, not to make fun of mental disorders but to show how...
"I'm sorry" he says "You're not crazy, I don't even know why I said that, I guess I was just pissed. I'm really sorry, i understand if you never want to talk to me again."
I let out a laugh. "Harry, it's okay." I smile
He lets out a sigh. "Thank god because I was becoming very paranoid and I didn't think you would forgive me."
"Well you don't have to be paranoid because I forgive you" I say.
He smiles brightly and takes me in his arms.
"Thank you" he whispers in my hair
I wrap my arms around his waist. "Don't thank me, I wasn't really mad at you in the first place."
"Well you should've of been, I was kinda a douche." He pulls away from me, emerald eyes shining.
"Yeah, let's just forget about it. Okay?"
"Okay." He smirks. "I believe we just had a fault in our stars moment"
I laugh. "Oh no no, I firmly believe that phrase is only for Augustus and Hazel."
"I can be your Augustus" he winks
"Oh my gosh Harry no, I cringe"
"Let's go on an adventure" he says taking my hands in his.
I look at him curiously. "How Harry, they won't let me out of here."
"Don't worry about that" he says "I'll figure something out something out."
There's something about him that's so inviting. I feel like I can trust him, he makes me feel safe.
"Okay okay, I'm in." I say,
------------------------------- AN//You should listen to Blood Bank by Bon Iver while reading this part 😊
3/7/16
Day 3,
I would've wrote sooner but I was in a the infirmary....I met a boy named Harry (AKA Harold) I don't think he likes when people call him that but I'm going to do it anyways, lol. I think he is my age and is truly lovely, he has these bright emerald green eyes that I find myself getting lost in every time they meet mine. Who am I becoming, gosh I sound so cheesy. He's the first friend that I have had in a while, I can't even describe how great he is, even though I just met him three days ago. Even though I have made a friend I am feeling a little homesick. I miss my mom, I miss being able to tell her how my day was after school. I miss my dad and our weekend adventures. Harry fills the whole in my heart. Okay well, I should get some sleep now, it's like 5.
-Loor
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"No I really do love you though"
Harry and I were walking in the park our hands intertwined.
His grin turns into a frown.
"Loor what are you talking about?"
I look at him confused. "Well I just thought, we've been tog-"
He lets out a laugh. "You thought we were together? Loor are you stupid, you're a freak I can't love you, well I mean I could but I won't"
He pulls his hand out of mine.
"Harry why are you talking like this?" I choke, my tears deciding to spill down my cheeks.
"Look I'm sorry if you thought we were something, I just wanted to be friends but I don't even want to be that because, well Loor you're insane. I just thought maybe if I stayed around long enough you'd let me in your pants." He grins
I stare at him in shock. How could he be saying these things, this isn't him. I look into his eyes seeing if I could find any type of emotion. Instead I find nothing but black holes. His eyes are no longer the emerald green eyes I grew to love, but instead they've been replaced with black ones.
"Harry what's wrong with your eyes"
I am in darkness now and Harry is no longer with me but instead it's her.
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AN// this is the girl Loor refers to as her. It's the person that follows her around because of her schizophrenia.
"Why are you so fucking stupid Loor?" She says, venom dripping from her voice.
"Where's Harry, what the fuck did you do to him?!" I scream
She laughs bitterly. "I didn't do anything he just finally realized how much of a crazy bitch you are. When are you going to realize that about yourself?"
"Stop!" I scream. "Just stop it! Leave me alone, just leave!"
Now I'm crying and I can't stop.
Why can't she just leave me alone.
"Loor...."
"Stop it, I can't do this anymore Im done, I promise, just leave!"
"Loor..."
"Hhmm"
I am shaking so bad but I can't seem to move.
"Loor, wake up babe. Come on wake up."
I know that voice all to well.
"Harry?" I mumble, I open my eyes to a pair of green ones staring down at me.
He looks so startled, so broken.
And that's when I start to cry.
"It was only a dream" I sigh.
His eyes are rimmed red. "Come here love." He says. "I have you now, don't worry, I'm here now"
He holds me in his arms as the sun rises.
And that is all I need right now.
AN// okay first of all I'd like to apologize for taking so long to update, high school sucks yo. That will never happen again, I will try to update every couple days. 💗💗
