|• TW: Sadstuck, humanstuck, depression •|
|•A/N: I'm back, and I have a possibly longer the usual one-shot for you.•|
Sollux's P.O.V:
I woke up like I did every day. Alone in my apartment. I miss my family, but they have destroyed everything I love. Maybe... Maybe this is what I need. Yes, maybe...
I, Sollux Captor, am about to commit suicide.
Thoughts of what happened exactly ten years ago go through my head as I hold the gun to my head.
|• ten years ago •|
Me and my older brother, Mituna were playing video games , and just having fun. That is until his girlfriend showed up.
"Hey tuna baby." She kissed him and took his controller.
"Let's go somewhere."
He smiled and nodded. All I got was bye and then he left. Wow... Why can't things be like that between him and I? I mean I have loved him longer, and will always love him. I shut off the game system, putting up the controllers.
"Solluxander Captor get your ass in here this instant!" I heard my mother scream, and walked into my room.
"Yeth mother?" I whispered, noticing she had my journal in her hands.
"What is this?" She pointed at a page, shoving it in my face.
"Mom it'th my journal, " I was cut off by a smack to my face and fell to the ground.
"Young man, don't you dare talk back to me, and more importantly you know what this is! How disgusting are you!?" My mother screamed, causing my dad to run into my room.
"What ith going on here!?" He yelled, looking at my mother.
"Sollux here, has... As you could say a crush on Mituna." She whispered, tears streaming down here face.
My father looked at me with a look of hurt, but mostly disappointment, although for a second I thought there was happiness in his eyes.
"Thollux, you can be gay, that'th okay! But.. But loving your own brother... " he stopped as he heard the door open.
"Don't thay a word to mituna about thith." He whisper yelled, as I just nodded, tears streaming down my face. Mituna came running past my room but stopped, and looked in from the door way.
"Wooah. Thollux!!" He ran in and hugged me tightly, "baby bro are you okay?"
I just nodded not trusting my voice, a small sigh leaving my parents.
"Mituna... Sollux is moving out soon, so say goodbye. " my mom spoke softly, not wanting to anger mituna.
"What!?" He hissed and glared at her, holding me tighter.
"He is moving out today, so say goodbye." She hissed back, craving me out of his arms.
"No! Thollux!" He tried to reach for me but my dad held him back. My mom dragged me out if the house and threw me onto the concrete.
"Have fun finding somewhere to stay!" With that she closed the door.
|•present time•|
I felt tears fall down my face as I looked at the gun in my hand. I couldn't do it. I dropped the gun and walked into my bathroom. There on my counter were my sleeping pills. Perfect. I smiled sadly, tears falling more rapidly as I took the bottle of pills. I walked back into my room and sat down on my bed, my phone beeping. It was my old friend, Eridan.
Eridan: Hey Sol!! I just wanted to tell you I hope you have an amazfin day!! Glub.
As much as the fish puns bugged me, I smiled and texted back a thank you. Now back to my plan. I took the lid off of the pill bottle and emptied some onto my hand. Without a second thought I swallowed what was in my hand, and then more, and more until the bottle was empty. My vision soon started to blur as my eyes grew heavy. There was a knock on my door as I felt myself slip unconscious.
Mituna's P.O.V:
I knocked on the apartment complex my younger brother was living in. No one answer after I knocked, but the door did creak open.
A small smile was on my face as I yelled, "Sollux!! Its me mituna!" There was no response, juat silence. I walked into his room to see if he was there, and saw him passed out on his bed. I sat down and shock him, trying to wake him up.
"Sollux?" I whispered, fearing what I already knew.
Tears fell down my face as I realized what had happened.
"No.... Sollux!!" I yelled out, tears falling rapidly as I buried my face in his chest, hoping I'd feel it move up and down, but there was nothing.
"Hey baby bro... I'm sorry for what happened. I love you. I always did! B-but mom say that was wrong... But she's wrong!!" I whispered as tears fell down my face, a small thought in the back of my head, "you're to late boy... He's gone."
|•A/N: I'm sorry for the feels. I literally cried while writing this.•|
