Turn Back Time

-Nobody's Pov-

Tatiana hasn't been feeling well.

Not since the incident.

Tatiana shudders as she remembers that fateful day. She sighs and try's to return her attention back to her health teacher. She spaced out while she talked about drugs. Once she focused her ears to listen to what she was currently saying she realized that the simple conversation about drugs turned into a less simple conversation about Chloroform, a chemical commonly used to kidnap little girls and boys.

But what the teacher didn't know was that Tatiana was very familiar with that particular Chemical. For it was used on her once or twice earlier that September.

What the teacher also didn't know was that Tatiana suffered from severe panic attacks. Before you know it Tatiana is sitting in her desk, remembering every little detail from the night everything changed. She gripped the sides of her desk, clamping her eyes shut. Images flashed through her mind as she held her breath. Oxygen deprived, she gasped for air and opened her eyes; frantically searching for the only other set of eyes in the room that knew about everything that had happened. Amy.

But Amy was home sick, leaving Tatiana with no other option than to flee. She quickly rose from her chair with one swift motion and was out the door in a matter of seconds. She ran to the bathroom and thank God no one was in there. She went up to a sink and splashed water in her face. Her heart rate started to slow as she placed her wet hands on ether sides of the sink. She sighs deeply and looks up at herself in the mirror.

Her eyes were blood shot; and her usually pink cheeks were lifeless and pale. She sighed even more loudly than before.

'All I have to do is hold on.' She thought to herself. 'Just hold on.'

-Harry's Pov-

With the concert so close, I've been trying to make myself busy. Just simple tasks here and there, nothing too big. Just little things to calm my nerves. I've been pretty stressed, this will be the last concert of our American tour; and I wanted to end with a bang.

"Lou! Where is the dish soap?" I asked, rummaging through our tour bus cabinets. "Lou?" I said again; he must have heard me, this tour bus isn't that big. I furrowed my eye brows together, wondering where he might be. I sighed and got up from my crouching position. I decided to look for Louis instead of clean the dishes; I walked to the bathroom but Louis but there. I fast walked to the bedrooms, worrying that something was wrong. The closer I got to the bedrooms the more I heard someone softly crying, this must be Lou I thought! I rushed to the rooms only to find that the door was locked. I pressed my ear up to the door, and heard Louis softly crying.

-Louis's Pov-

I couldn't believe it. After all this time. She cheated, lied and broke my heart. I thought El was the one; I even bought her a promise ring. I thought that I would eventually get married to her and we were going to have children together. But no, she decides to rip my heart out and spit on it. I hate her. No, I love her. No I- AH. I hate myself for loving her. Why do I always fall for the wrong girl? The one's with no souls and cold hearts. It felt like I couldn't breathe, the room started to spin and I find myself falling to my knees. I heard Harry call out to me but I ignored him. I couldn't deal with this right now. I backed up against the side of my bed and brought my knees up to my chest. I didn't realize I was crying until tears started to fall onto my knees. I was in shock. How could I let this happen, I should have never left to go on tour. This is my entire fault. I'm never going to get a girl with this job; it's just too hard on them. I started to cry louder and louder, until I was full out sobbing. Harry was right outside the door now but there was no way he's going to get in. I locked the door.

"Lou! Louis what's wrong!" Harry said; urgency raging through his voice.

"Go away.." I mumbled trying to sound stern, but unfortunately my voice cracked, making me sound rather fragile.

"Please Boo, I want to help." Harry said, you could tell he was upset by the tone in his voice; he hates it when I'm upset. I didn't respond I really wanted to be alone.

"Boys! Come help me!" I heard Harry say, the next moment I felt the bus shake. Signaling that they were running to Harry.

"Lou's in there and he's crying! But he won't let me in." Harry explained.

"Lou open up," Zayn said lightly patting the door.

"Please Lou, we can help." Niall continued, also knocking on the door.

"Lou, please tell us what's wrong, we hate to see you upset. Please let us in." Liam said, hearing how badly the boys wanted help me I Sobbed louder into my hands, finally realizing what had happened. I got up and swung the door open and jumped on the first boy I saw, Liam. I hugged him and cried into his shirt. The rest of the boys came and patted me on the back trying to get me to tell them what was wrong. Once I had calmed down a bit I let go of Liam and let the boys guide me to the sofa in the 'Living room' of the tour bus.

"Here, take a seat Lou." Harry said, he was always the most protective of me.

"I'll make you a nice, hot cup of tea." Liam said quickly grabbing me a blanket for me.

"Thanks Li," I responded. Liam came back several minutes later with my tea, just the way I liked it.

"Well I guess I should tell you boys what happened." I said Liam and Zayn pulled up two chairs to sit on while Niall and Harry sat down next to me on the couch. I sighed remembering the conversation over text.

"Well, Eleanor t-texted me. And um t-turns out sh-she was cheating on me-e-e." I stuttered, once again, letting the tears fall from my eyes. All the boys looked at me apologetically and Harry rubbed my back.

"It's ok Lou, you'll find another girl." Liam said reassuringly.

"No I w-wont" I responded putting my face in my hands.

"Come on Lou don't think like that." Harry said.

"But what choice do I have! No girl will ever love me! My job just gets in the way! El always complained that I was always gone so she left! We couldn't even go anywhere without getting mobbed by Paps. I don't-. I just don't know what to do anymore." I said clamping my eyes shut to try to keep from crying.

"Lou, I know it's a bit over whelming right now, I felt the same way with Danielle, but you can't think like that. You've got to stay positive; there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Just hold on." Liam said, grabbing my shoulders. I knew he was right. It will get better, it always does. I nodded in agreement.

"Your right Li, thanks, I don't know what I would do without you boys." I said giving them a genuine smile.

"That's what we're here for Lou, right Lads?" Niall stated; his voice thick with his Irish accent.

"Right!" All the boys said in unison. I smiled; it's nice to have 4 other people know exactly what to say to you to make you feel better.

"Now let's play some Fifa!" I said, I've got to do something to get my mind off of her.

Hey! I hope you like the first chapter! I worked really hard on it, this is actually my first story. I just wrote it in a note book and didn't think about putting it up anywhere till now :P So vote, comment and add it to your Library :)