What Happens When You Commit Suicide

The Hospital

I felt a sudden jerk of energy and sat up in the bed i was somehow in. i must have been close to the maternity wing 'cause i can hear the loud cry of babies coming from the next room. I saw the call nurse button. I pressed it and about 10 seconds later a woman in a white nurse shirt and scrubs on.

Then i noticed a small tattoo on her arm that is barely noticeable and it said, "There should be no cowards way out". She said, "Ok then, if nothing is wrong then i will be headed on my way". Right as she was leaving i asked, "What is wrong with me" She simply replied with, "Suicide".

 I looked down on my arms right as she lef and i felt the surge of emotion from what had happened earlier. As i sat there crying i thought i heard my wife's voice and i called out, "Mari?!?". To my avail nothing and just sat there practically in hell right now and thinking about how ironic that tattoo was.

 There were scars where my wrist is and i saw all the wires and stuff in my arm and down in the patient gown thing. I began to freak out even more than i was before. I kept on thinking about how i might as well be dead.

 I then saw my phone sitting next to me and i looked through the message, I had like 20 messages all from the same person. i looked at the name and it was all from my wife. They all said ,"There should be no cowards way out". That was when the regrouping of my emotions just all went to complete shit and the crying began again. 

 The nurse came back and asked me how i was doing i responded with, "when can i go home" She responded with, " You are actually on leave now. That is why i came in here to tell you that". Oh i said and asked where my clothes were and began walking out i passed the maternity wing and there were babies in there with tattoos that read, "he shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost and with fire".

 I thought what kind of sick place tattoos little infants. I wondered if that would be like getting your ears pierced and that it is much better because you can't remember the pain if there was any. Maybe it like getting the umbilical cord cut.

 i began walking a little faster i realized that this hospital literally had every single room filled. But not a single visitor for anyone. I got to the door when I opened it. It was just more hospital I thought that it was just another wing of the hospital so I followed the exit signs to another door and opened it and more hospital

I began to kinds freak and yet nothing just more hospital. Then the nurse that was checking in on me encountered me and asked what I was doing. I looked down at her name tag it said: Nurse Lisa.

I said that I was kinda lost she asked kinda like someone is watching so I am going to say what they want me to say. She said, " OK I will show you" and she told me to follow her and while we were walking she was writing down something. I looked over at her clip board it said

"Meet me at the janitorial closet to the left in 15 minutes I looked over and she nodded". She directed me to my room (46) and pointed at the camera and then pointed at the clock. She then continued out the room and walked to the right.

I waited and waited

I eventually looked at the papers next to my bed and most of them just kept saying"There should be no cowards way out" I began crying again, this time i did nothing just sat there letting the tears run down my cheek and onto the slippery floor.

 Soon about 15 minutes went by and i started my way to the janitorial closet i was surprised i remembered where it was. When i walked in the room it was much more large than anyone was expecting it would be and i honestly kinda gasped at it .  About 5 minutes nurse Lisa came in. She was wearing much more casual clothes and her hair was down in a jumbly mess that was somehow still beautiful in some messy way.

The very first thing she said was, "Yes you are litterly in Hell"