Skinny Love

Deja Vu

It's about an hour into the party and I'm more high that I am drunk, which is good. When I'm drunk I argue and debate with people like there is no tomorrow. It's weird, like really fucking weird. I know, this is why Wes doesn't like me drunk. So far I've gotten like 10+ phone numbers and not going to call any of them. Herbinko is sitting by the the ocean tides, Sammee is talking to everyone by the bonfire, Wes and Jonah are talking to some girls, Chase found a guitar and is singing by the bonfire, and me, well I'm kinda with Ryle talking about how he knows Jonah. I don't know how or why this conversation started, but it did.

"So basically Jonah was at the boardwalk one day and this one girl would not leave me alone, like I had asked her to leave me alone a few time, and at that point I was just fed up because she had been bugging me for about an hour." Cody said with a lot of hand motions.

"No fucking way." I said laughing.

"I'm not kidding, and so I saw Jonah and I had the splendid idea of 'hey, this kid looks chill. He's going to be my scapegoat' and so I walk up to Jonah, and I say something along the lines of "Hey man! It's been forever! How are you?" and some other bullshit like that," He said and I was laughing so hard because knowing Jonah he gave Cody the weirdest fucking look, "And I shit you not he gave me this look of 'who the fuck and what the fuck'  and I gave him this look of 'Just fucking go with is please.' So he says "heyyyyyyyyyyy man" in the awkwardest fucking way possible."

"Oh my gosh, so did that chick leave?" I ask wanting to know the end of this weird story. 

"No, she didn't! She thought Jonah was cute so she followed us both around. We finally lost her like 2 hours later when we went to bathroom! There were two exits and that's how we lost her." He says while we both laugh our asses off. 

"And that, my friend is how I met Jonah. We ended up staying in contact with each other."

"Well you know I would like to believe being stalked for 2 hours by the same person is a really bonding experience."  I say with sarcasm in my voice.

"It really is!" Cody say with enthusiasm.

A while later I'm still talking to Cody, and let me tell you, he's fucking hilarious. He makes the dumbest fucking faces and the weirdest noises I've ever heard in my life. He was kind of a breath of fresh air after everything that Wes and I have been going through lately. I check the time and it says 2:49 A.M. Wow. We've been talking all night. It felt like it's only been like a hour or so. I guess time flies when you having fun. 

 It's been a good night, as far as I know. Me and Cody exchange numbers and agree to go to lunch or something soon, and I go look for everyone. Herbinko was lying in the sand near the ocean, just listening to the tide come in and out.

"Hey Herbinko, wanna head back?"

I ask while sitting next to him.

"Sure, I'm driving right?" 

He asks not knowing if I had sobered up.

"You seem really tired, I'll drive. We'll be fine. I've sobered up. I'm good to drive."

I say playing with the cold sand in my hands. 

"Are you sure, you really don't have to."

He says warily.

"It's fine, really. I can drive." 

I say touching his hand softly to reassure him.

"Okay. Let's go find the others and go back to the hotel." 

He says getting up and handing me the keys.

Herbinko and I walk around for a while, weaving through the people, looking for our friends. We find Chase with a few girls by the dimly lit bonfire strumming the guitar while singing a ballad. I get Chase's attention and let him know we are heading back to the hotel, he hugs the girls goodbye and we go look for Sammee. We find Sammee on the pier with her feet dangling off. After a few hours into parties Sammee gets really tired and likes to be by herself. We get Sammee and then go and try to find Jonah and Wes. I find Jonah and he's buzzed, not super drunk, just buzzed. I ask him where Wes is and he points behind me. You know how I said that its been a good night? Well I spoke too soon, because I turn around and I see Wes sucking faces with someone else. Wow. this is a familiar feeling. I feel tears brim my eyes. You know the saying drunk words are sober thoughts? Well I'm a strong believer of that, and in this case so are actions. I suck in the tears and walk over to Wes. I grab him by the back of his shirt and start pulling him away from the random girl. 

"Sorry love but it's past his bedtime."  I say while dragging him back.

I drag Wes all the way back to the car with the others following. The only one who understands the real reason I'm upset is Jonah. Everyone else thinks I'm pissed beyond, is because Wes is obviously shit-faced. He could barely say a sentence without a pause, or slurring his words. I push him into the backseat of the  black Jeep Wrangler and buckle him in. Jonah sits next to him, Cody takes shotgun, and Sammee and Chase get the small trunk-like area.

(What the Jeep looks like, just in case you didn't know)

I drive back to the hotel, well more like speed back to the hotel and parked in the first spot I saw. I grabbed the car key, got out of the car, slammed the door and ran to my hotel room. I  was so pissed, that was the second time seeing him kiss another girl. You know, I wouldn't mind if he said he didn't like me that day under the bleachers, but he didn't.  He's not even acting like himself. It's so frustrating. Walking into the shared hotel room, Sammee knows how upset I am and she also know that when I'm this upset it's better to just let me think it out. I'm literally sitting on my bed curled up into a ball, ear buds in, and tears rolling down my cheeks. 

An hour or so later I finally calm down and decide that I really need to talk this out with Jonah because at the moment he's the only one that I can talk to. Sammee is asleep and Herbinko shares a room with Wes so I'm not going in there. I text Jonah making sure he's awake. 

Me: Jonah, you awake?

Jonah: Yeah, you want to talk about it?

Me: Please?

Jonah: Okay we can go to the donut shop.

Me: okay, I'll come over. give me a minute to change. 

I change into the most comfortable outfit I brought. A sweater with leggings and my black ankle booties.

I head over to Jonah's room and sigh. It's going to be a long night.

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A.N.- Sorry for the really late and random updates. I know they aren't consistent, but I'm really busy being a full time student and all the fun stuff. Just bear with me until I can get my life together. Thank you for those of you who are sticking around.♥