Before
Since that day under the tree, we hung and talked like we normally, but we felt different, we felt in love. One day we went on a school trip (yes again) this girl (jade) kept screaming how the birds were sexy and some other random sh!t. But then he just looked at me and smiled then said "Then your a bird" . I didn't know what to say I just smiled and I'm pretty shure I blushed too. Later on the way back I started to doze of and well I fell asleep and so I guess he saw me and just started to dozed of too and when he shut his eyes his jaw line... it just... Well I whispered to myself " damn" just loud enough so I could hear myself but no one else could and after that I doze off but only a few minutes later I found my self leaning towards his side and my head heading right towards his shoulder so I had to stop myself from falling onto his shoulder or I could of made it obvious to the whole world (the people on the bus) "anchor Anndi anchor don't fugging fall" I thought to myself and just "woke my self up" to save myself from leaning on him and lucky we had just arrived back to our ! school and I just poped right up like I was never asleep and then faked a yawn so it would seem more believable that I was asleep and not trying not to fall on a hot persons shoulder even though it would have been great if I let myself go. But I shure I shure as sh!t was not going to let my self fall.
Meanwhile everyone else got off the bus and scurried home kept replaying that moment when he told me I was a bird maybe that's why I like birds so much nowadays....
That bird moment as I know call it was a golden moment in my head that just kept replaying over and over again in my head. But a couple of days later I found out that Jade still liked Jason. And she kept on telling me and him that he had to choose on of us but she made it look like the hunger games or the election for president. I'm not shure if she blackmailed him but he ended up choosing her.
I was so mad and confused and then all of a sudden sad, it was like I was on my period, but I wasnt. For a few weeks I didnt talk to him and he kept on trying to make me laugh or talk to him, but I just kept on ingnoring him over and over again. I dont remember how but I did end up talking to him. We were still friends and I liked that I thought it was always going to be like this and when we got to middle school we.were still going to be friends and that we would still have the weirdest conversations and laugh so hard about random stuff.
On our last few weeks of school we had just gotten our year books and we got to sign each others year books and when he signed my year book I didn't even tell him to write down his phone number he just did. With was weird because I thought he liked her...
Or did he still like me... I don't know but I really wish I could have him talk about his feelings with me but I guess not seeing the what happened the last time we talk about his feelings.
But shoulda know better than to keep on letting him into my heart and messing it up as soon it had healed.
