I would imagine myself in the the school's councilor's room. And all I thought of saying was that..
I'm so tired of people telling me what I can't and can do and things I must do, I know I'm a piece of crap and all that shit. I'm worthless, useless, unwanted and unloved just like what my parents had said all my 16 years of fucking living.
They'd only say i'm fucking pretty or appreciate my existence if I do what the hell they wanted. They're only kind when they have something they want.
I feel so used up, I try to build myself back again and when I did they'd tear me down again, and break me further till I cant breathe. I'm always on my own, no one wants me. I'm the fucking ugly sister, the family's shame, the fucked up outcast, the shitty friend, the school's freak and most annoying things in the world that everyone wish to get rid of.
Having every dream tear down makes me wonder if I was worth dreaming....
What's wrong with me?
Why was I born like this?
Why am I so fucked up?
Why can't I just be....
Someone better than who I am right now?
I know I don't want to be like everyone else....
I just want to be someone better
Someone loved and cared for
Someone not selfish and alone
Someone who everyone would truly missed
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A Thousand Thoughts
AléatoireThis are my thoughts Thoughts of when i'm alone Thoughts when i am in places filled with crowds Thoughts when it's silent Thoughts when it's as loud as minds Thoughts when i look out and wonder why Behind it all Is the past i couldn't let go
