Losing you ( a phan fiction)

Chapter 2: Clumsy idiot

       Song: Tag your it
                           by Melanie Martinez

Here's chapter 2 *^*

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The clouds grew dark and murky, every last bit of sun hidden away by an angry roaring gray cloud as i with shoulders hunched dragged my feet along the dark, dusty pavement. After one last growl from the cloud, tears descended to the ground; as the tears fell on my back I felt better in someway, it was like the cloud was me, crying when I shouldn't, letting it go when I couldn't. I felt my heart fall into the pit of my stomach as I replayed the argument over and over again in my mind.

*I may of just lost my best friend to my stupid petty love for him.* I thought quietly to myself, walking up the flight of stairs leading back to our flat.

As I stood in front of the dark brown door fear rushed up my spine. I shook out all the negative thoughts that flowed through my head and opened the door. I entered, shutting the door behind me and was met with a ruckus. A silent sigh left my mouth as I walked up the stairs to my room which was unfortunately across from Dan's room. Standing in front of my door I eavesdropped on Dan and her argue about something pointless, once again; their push and pull routine started with arguing about something pointless, leading to her storming out, not coming back for quite some time, Dan oh so depressed, turning to me for comfort and safety, but once she comes knocking, Dan leaps at her telling her he is sorry as they shower each other with passionate kisses which more than likely leads into an intense make out session, and I am discarded back into the corner like an old toy. 

I shook my head and entered my dark room, quietly shutting the door behind me not wanting Dan to know I was home. I sat on my bed and looked around the dark room, shadows danced across the room as lightning shot down from the sky illuminating my room. The noise from the room across stopped, the silence painfully long made way for my thoughts to slowly take over. My thoughts were shattered by her screaming angrily at Dan for something he said.

"HOW DARE YOU COMPARE ME TO THAT PIECE OF TRASH?!" Her voice was loud enough to wake the whole apartment complex, I felt my heart rise a little as hope filled my body which was instantaneously crushed when Dan said he was sorry.
"I'm sorry, babe. I didn't mean to compare you to him, you're right. He's useless always making mistakes, not being careful."  But from the sounds of her huffs and puffs, it seemed like she was more than hurt with what he said.

I slumped down into my bed wanting to end it all with one little slice across my forearm. It was so easy but yet so hard. My pain and suffering from seeing her and Dan together would stop. I was already addicted to slicing my flesh what difference would it make if I sliced it one last time to make everything stop? I slapped my face with enough force to break me free my inner demons but enough to not leave my face stinging, *stop it Phil. You shouldn't be thinking like this.* While I argued with myself, I heard loud footsteps stomping down the stairs, the door slam shut making the entire flat and everything in it rattle.

*shes finally gone* I thought to myself. I tiptoed out my room careful not to make any noise and headed down the stairs, *maybe a cup of tea will help calm my nerves.* my mind said and of course I happily agreed with my mind. I pulled out a mug out of the cupboard, put water into the kettle to boil and sifted through the tea flavors we had.

"Raspberry, peach, earl gray." I mouthed silently, I looked through the flavors till I saw one that might help me. "Green tea." I nodded and heard my water begin to whistle. I rushed over and poured the boiling water into a tea pot and dropped the tea packet in, waited a few minutes and took out the tea bag and began to pour it into my mug. I walked out the kitchen only to bump into Dan and spill some of the burning hot tea on his shirt as I lost my grasp for the mug and watched it fall to the floor while Dan stood there with a painful as well as a angry expression plastered on his face.

"HOLY SH-PHIL! You clumsy idiot, can't you do anything right?!" He spat running off to his room. I stood in shock as tears built up in the brim of my eyes as they began loosely falling down my cheek. I walked to my room and flopped onto my bed thinking about the choices I have to pick from. After a bit of thinking I finally decided what I was gonna do.
I was gonna leave the world for good, and no one was gonna stop me.
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Hey guys!
Sorry I haven't updated in awhile, I've literally had no inspiration for chapter 2; but now I'm flowing with inspiration for writing ideas:3
Anyways, I hoped you liked the chapter and if you have any tips to help me improve my writing, don't be shy to tell meh:P