never let me go |brallie fanfiction|

|wonder|

The moon was so bright. And his eyes were brighter than that. He was sitting on the bench, i sat side of him. We were not talking, because our moms told us we shouldn't do that. But in the deep down, we knew that we were belong each other. He turned me and,
"I know you felt that. I mean, we both did. Why is that so hard and beautiful at the same time."
I didn't said anything. I was trying to be calm, trying to not cry.
"The wedding was the place. Everything happend at there. So we couldn't stop. It happend."
It was quite for a while.
"But it was real. We promised to each other. We both felt that. We both, feel the same way."
"I know."
I went to my bedroom and sat in front of window, then i started to think. Think about the things as real.
-One year ago.-

"You kicked their ass, B."
"Thank you. At least you're thinking like that."
"Course I do."
They hugged. It was such a good feeling. Their love was running into more than it already is.
"Promise me this is forever."
"I promise."
And it was. The best thing they ever could've say.

-Our day.-

After those feelings, i felt terribly good. It's just so complicated. Was i still in love with him? It seems like i will not gonna learn that. After few minutes, he came to my room,
"Do you have still feelings?"
"Why did you just said that?"
"I want only one answer, that's all."
"I...I don't know, do you?"
"Course I do!"
he screamd.
"I'm just afraid so much. It's so dangerous but it's not the part of why I am scaring. I just don't know what it will be."
"Okay."
I was triying so hard to not cry. So I ran to the backyard. I tried to breathe. I was not in love with him, so he is. That's all. When i realized to i can't stop myself, i jump to the car and i started to drive. I was feeling angry. To him? No, to myself? Maybe. I was totally angry with myself. All i did was just say "okay."
I though, maybe if i tell myself enough, i could feel better. So i drive to the love, anger, darkness, i drive for finding old me, my lost side.