You Are Just A Bet

I Love You But...

Samayra's POV:

I glanced at Arnav who was looking confused and tensed by my expressions. He was trying to read my face. I looked at him apologetically. Oh...CRAP...I am going to do another heart break now. I was really feeling like a total bitch now but at least this time this heartbreak will something cause good. Now it looks painful thing to do but it's better to do it now before it become too late, I thought.

I held Arnav's hand. Took a long breath and said softly.

"I am so sorry Arnav but I can't say YES to you. You are a nice guy and you deserve a girl who loves you more than anything in the world. I love you. I really am but it's just like a friend. A special friend...I am so sorry to give you false hopes but trust me I myself didn't realize this thing until now that what I actually want. But now because of you, that your 'closing eye' thing helps me to know what my heart actually wants and it's not you, it's Reyansh. It's always him. I didn't want to accept it that time but if today I decline my feelings then things would go worse. I know I am acting like a total bitch but it's a right thing to do. It's actually a first right thing which I am doing after a very long time. I am so sorry but I don't love you that way. I love Reyansh."

I was looking at the floor now instead of him as I didn't have the courage to look in his eyes. I felt so bad for him and I was ashamed and angry on myself that I am the cause who hurt him. He placed his warm hand on my shoulder and then up my chin by his fingers so I can able to look into his eyes.

"Go and tell him" he said.

What...what just happened...I was shocked by his reaction. I thought he will become so angry or don't want to talk to me ever or blame me for his heartbreak or something like that but to my surprise he wasn't. Though he looked a bit sad and upset but still he was calm.

"I know this is going to come. Sooner or later but it would happen. I already knew somewhere that you are falling for him but I didn't want to accept it because I really love you. I wanted to give chance to me, to you and our relationship but I think it's no use now because now you know who you want exactly. I saw you guys when you looked at each other. I see the way you looked at him and I always wanted to see that special look in your eyes, that light when you looked at him for me but I was never able to see it and now I think it's never going to happen also. I just want to see you happy. Go and get your boy. Don't worry about me. I can take care myself."

My eyes filled with water. He was such a darling. He was a real friend whom I never want to lose. He is worth for it to keep him till the end. I feel so stupid now that everyone around me knows that I love Reyansh and I took so much time to get it. I kissed his cheek and stood up to leave.

"Hey we are still and always be friends...Right...I can't lose you." I said hopefully.

He smiled at me and nodded.

"Thank You and I love you. You are the best friend after Saaisha I can ever get and I am proud of you."

I ran to meet Reyansh.