Copyright © 2011 Isabel Wong
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"Stop! Don't leave me please, I beg you. Please, please, I need someone to listen. I don't want to be alone anymore. Please, PLEASE!!" She desperately cried out, even though she knew everything was futile. He was gone. She was alone. Alone, all by herself.
Crash! Her alarm clock fell onto the floor as she jerked awake for the first time in months. She was bathed in cold sweat, the nightmare still fresh in her mind. It had been 3 months now and the memory was still as clear as if it just happened yesterday.
She grimaced as she realised that the nightmares were coming back. Why did he leave her? He was her closest friend, the only one she could tell everything to. And he left in her darkest moments. She let herself drift back to that cold dark day.
That day started out as usual. But she noticed that something was up with him. He wasn't his usual cheery self, and for the first time ever, a huge chasm separated them. Silence reigned and she didn't dare to break this fragile, cold, unfamiliar silence. And then the fatal blow came. He gazed at her with cold eyes and told her that he couldn't be her friend anymore. She was stunned, she couldn't speak, her mouth struggled to form words until he started walking away. Her worst fear came true, and no matter how much she screamed at him to not leave her, she knew that she was alone, nothing could be salvaged anymore.
But yet she tried. Only God knew how hard she tried. She tried to talk to him everyday and each time she tried, her heart started breaking more and more. She was met with ice cold indifference. She knew it was the end.
People always left her. She thought he was different, that he would stay. Deep down, she knew that he would leave like the rest anyway, after hearing her deepest dark secrets. But yet, she held a tiny flame of hope within. How foolish she was to believe that things would be okay.
She was tired of being strong. She didn't want to try anymore. Her spirit was thoroughly broken, she wasn't sure if she could stand up anymore.
After 3 months, she was back on her feet again, though slightly bitter and less trusting now. She buried everything deep down inside her heart. She didn't need anyone. She could survive on her own. And survive she did. She became the happy girl everyone knew, the listener, the girl who seemed so strong but was falling apart within.
She couldn't bring herself to hate him. Hating people wasn't in her blood anyway. The deep wounds slowly but surely healed, she thought no one could hurt her anymore. And she was sure that even though he could, she was able to take the blow. She got through everything.
And yet now, the nightmares have come back. Why did the past have to come back to bite her in the ass? She already had so much on her plate to deal with.
She didn't think the past still had the power to make her cry. She thought she was okay, she was doing fine. Funny how life just had to throw in curveballs and bring up the past when she was seemingly finally healed.
Well, she will get through it. She wouldn't let life get her down. She was sure more pain was awaiting her tomorrow, she didn't want to know her results, she didn't want it to be the last year wearing her uniform.
She mused over this little thing called life. Such a simple word, yet it held so much meaning, so much significance. Sighing, she shook her head and decided to go and play a game of basketball later. 200 hoops to shoot as punishment for her brain then.
The end was near, but yes, she would take whatever life threw at her, and go wherever life took her to.
Our time has been running out,
And ain’t no way to catch it now
Just say goodbye and walk it out
Separation, you and me and
everything that you say is turning me.
You’re just blinding, your eyes dying,
Inside your heart is cold
Long time coming we been fronting
Let’s not fake this any longer now
We should let go turn back walk away and
Leave this all behind
The light is fading and I’m headed into darkness baby
Memories falling apart
I can’t keep holding, see my arms won’t seem to let me
Gotta use my head than my heart
Finish Line - Yasmin
