Well as it is every day at school you learn stuff and go home. But something caught my eye. I kept thinking that the world hates me I can't get any friends and I can't live a good life. I kept thinking of suicide but of course I have to keep going. Now since people have told me that I'm cool and they pick me up from my bad times I never thought of killing myself again. As I grow through the ages my attitude was worse and I really kept causing problems. After my problems had disappeared now people have been really calling me names. That's when I decided if I should kill myself or not.
My friends give my one chance to fix everything and I just kept saying no. I been through stuff like breaking up with someone and my grandfather dying. I really wasn't able to handle it and when I just wanted to give up. I have held a bunch of knives and kept thing just to end it now but I couldn't. Along the way I have been thinking of the future and not the past. I kept picking myself up and now I notice that I'm am just a kid who has a lot of life left. No one wants to be with me and I don't know what I should do now.
But as I keep living on I have learned that a friend of mine has the same problems and he needs help also so we both keep in touch and we pick each other up. So really now I just wait and wait until someone else comes with me and be right next to me to support me, tell me nice thing and be the person I would want to live with forever. Now since I caused these problems that can't happen now but in the future.
